[stuck in a rut]

I was adopted at 10 and sexually abused by my adopted father from the age of 10 to about 13. He was an alcoholic. He would tell me that I would be his wife one day and take care of him. Of course he threatened to kill me if I told anyone. I ended up telling my adopted mother one day, but she never believed me and continued to let the abuse go on. One day he came to my school and told my teacher I had a doctor's appointment. There was no doctor's appointment, but rather he took me out of the country to Africa. We were to all go as a family, so we had all the nessary shots and paperwork. What my adopted mother didnt know is she wasnt going. We lived there a year until the u.s. embassy had his contract voided and we were forced to move back to the u.s. Eventually, my adopted mother regained custody and they were divorced. I have a very strained relationship with my adopted mother to this day. She also beat me growing up and forced me do all the cooking and cleaning. I also had to give her all my money and was not allowed to grow my hair long, get my driver's license or do any extra curricular activies in school. I moved out at 20 and never looked back. I moved into a dinky apartment where the only furniture I had was a mattress on the floor and a crappy loveseat. Most days I went without eating because I didn't have any money. Not once did she ask me if I had enough to eat. But at least I could do whatever i wanted for once in my life. Of course once I turned 21, I started drinking. I eventually realized that my behavior was very distructive. ( my birth parents were also alcoholics). I stopped drinking and don't drink to this day.

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[Poppy Princess]

I'm sorry that's awful. How are you feeling today?

[stuck in a rut]

I am having a pretty good day. I know I am not responsible for what happened to me. I don't consider myself a victim, but rather a survivor. I am seeing my doctor on Wednesday to talk about going back on my anxiety meds, so I can really enjoy life again. Thanks for asking.

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[StarkRavingMad]

I'm sorry, too. You seem to be a very strong person. Even if you struggled, you got the heck out of there and took care of yourself. That's not easy.