[blkbutterfly76]

What do you do when your suffocating? His words wrap their vicious fingers around your throat and squeeze so hard you gasp for air. You try to talk but all you can do is try to pry the invisible fingers from around your neck...his actions stab you deep inside your heart...the pain so sharp you pray for it to stop only for him to see your pain and begin to twist the meaness deeper and harder inside...you cry inside unable to cry aloud tears stream down your eyes he's seems to thrive from your hurt...his lips curl upward teeth showing like an angry dog attempting a smile...why does he enjoy my pain? All youve done is try to please him and be the wife your supposed to be...he's nice to everyone around but your his target...is it you? What did you do? You smiled, you cooked, you cleaned, you tried really hard and all you got was shut the **** up you stupid *****...are you annoying? Is it you? wish you could sleep and never awake because you can't make him happy and your living in hell...there's no escape not even in sleep...he awakes you to be mean to but if he couldn't wake you if you never woke up youd be free! You could finally rest in peace away from the monster you married!

[blkbutterfly76]

Guess nobody else has a better answer either.

[nicoleflynn]

There are no answers why the abuse. The Verbally Abusive Relationship by Patricia Evans saved my life after 31 years of abuse. You don't have to remain with a monster. Are you in counseling? That can help a lot. Abusers are full of rage at whatever was done to them in the past; they have issues that need to be dealt with, but rarely do.

[A Red Panda]

((Just as an fyi, the time you made your post and then your follow up is during hours when most North Americans are asleep, so that would explain a lack of immediate responses....))

There's no answer to why you are being abused. Wrong place, wrong time. Only your husband knows why he is abusive. Whatever it is - you don't deserve it, and you don't have to stay. Leaving is an option, even though I understand how hard and terrifying that is.

[blkbutterfly76]

Sometimes i just wish i did have people to talk to who could talk back. I guess thats why i hoped i could have gotten an immediate reply...i saw views but no replies thats why i made the statement...trust if i could just pick up and leave i would... I have no easy way out thats an eternal slumber has become more appealing and that scares me... He is crazy...hes been threatning me more and more demanding me like im his child...telling me do not disrespect him...ordering me to come here this instant or if i disrespect him im making him want to hurt him im trying him making him wanna bash my skull in or drag me to the room...i was told today if i sass again from now on hes just gonna smack me in my mouth because hes the husband and i will not leave him nor get a divorce and if i leave and he has to look for me it wont be good.. Then he kept trying to make me talj he sat up with this evil grin hooverig above me rubbing his hands together waiting ao he could smack me if i talked...then he stopped startes talking normal i waled into the kitchen for water he grabbed me tried to make me hug him and kiss him...hes sick and needs help...hes going to kill me if i stay and kill me if i get caught runni g...im running outta time either way.

[redbandit]

Is there anywhere you can stay so you can be safe?? Please talk to someone and get some help if at all possible. I've been in abusive relationships, I know they are not easy to get out of, but please keep yourself safe!

[Yoda]

What country do you live in?

[blkbutterfly76]

No i havr nowhere i can go....
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