[smartyjoe]

Wow, since my last post I have discovered that what happened in our family goes much deeper that I knew. I always thought the sex was with my closest sister, Dad and I. Turns out I was wrong. My middle sister and I were talking about it and how that I knew she was aware of what happened with dad and I. I asked what she thought about it and how if at all it had affected her relationship with the other girls or me for that matter. She went on to tell me that it involved more than just me and the one sister. Once my oldest sister was married and out of the house my little sister moved out of mom and dads room and into the room with middle sister. She said it wasn't long before Dad was in there playing with baby sister. She would have been only 5 at that time. She said dad would perform oral on little sister while they were both in the bed. She would act like she was asleep when it was going on. I would have been 11 by then and still sharing a room with 13 year old sister. We neither one knew it. Our room was on the other end of the hallway so we would not have been able to see. Middle sister would have been 15 when this started. She said it went on until she graduated high school and left for college. I should have known it went deeper than what I was directly involved in.

[kaliope]

i hope you dont blame yourself for not knowing. it is hard to know the depths of abuse. it is terrible that you and your sisters had to suffer at the hands of such a sick man. i am sorry that this happened to you. i hope you are taking steps to healing now. take care.