[Partless]

Like with the interaction with people (family) who seem to be manipulative by nature. Like you been through this so many times. You can predict what's gonna happen. It used to enrage you and you would argue and say what you were seeing and tried to change people and tried to tell them how much it hurt you...but now, now it's more of that ****ing pain inside, like your mouth taped shot, you watch the same **** happen...like a soldier in war...watch yet another person die and he doesn't feel anything but feels like a part of him is slowly dying, little by little. Maybe it's the part that could feel love.

[bluekoi]

Partless, I understand what it is like to not feel. I did this to protect myself. Now I have trust issues. Are you seeing a mental health professional to help you cope?

[XSleepingSiren21X]

I have that same situation all the time too. I'm always tired of family acting like it's not happening or not listening to the point they just do nothing about it, but at the same time they're just too ignorant to do anything because they feel like they're better than everyone. It makes me feel like I'm inferior to everyone, they just sit there on their high horse pretending they know everything about you than yourself.

It's tiring and I can't stand it. They think you can't read them, but really they're more predictable than you yourself are.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Originally Posted by Partless

Like with the interaction with people (family) who seem to be manipulative by nature. Like you been through this so many times. You can predict what's gonna happen. It used to enrage you and you would argue and say what you were seeing and tried to change people and tried to tell them how much it hurt you...but now, now it's more of that ****ing pain inside, like your mouth taped shot, you watch the same **** happen...like a soldier in war...watch yet another person die and he doesn't feel anything but feels like a part of him is slowly dying, little by little. Maybe it's the part that could feel love.

It's like when my roommate shares something going on in the world. No, I still feel some, but why am I not surprised anymore at the atrocities? Part of me is so jaded now. I used to care more. it's not like I don't care. It's more like I learned to close some of it off now. It just hurts too much not to.

thanks,

Carol