[tryingtoo]

It is the time of the year where my PTSD just gets all sorts of off the wall.
Two years ago I got into a relationship (it lasted from September 18 2012 to March 2013) that was highly abusive. It resulted in every time I saw him (after October 11 of 2012) (the day before my birthday) he raped me.
I made a lot of progress in therapy over the past two years. This past summer I successfully got off of my medications (here here!) and am very pleased about that.
However, I'm feeling like he never existed, we never existed, and all of the memory I have regained from that relationship is going away again. I feel like it never happened. Any of it. Memory fragmentation, I know.
But does anyone have any advice to remember?
Please?
Because I know it happened. My therapist tells me weekly. But I have NO recollection of any of it.
Thank you
~Emma

[Just keep swimming]

I don't have any advice but I'm grateful for your post. Memories are a strange thing for me. Sometimes I feel like I don't remember giving birth to my son. Isn't that weird? Then I remember, "Oh yeah, I did give birth to him." And that's a really happy memory.

Other things I don't remember at all or partially remember and I just don't know what to do with those memories. It's a little disturbing, but then sometimes I'm relieved I don't remember too well.