[dandylin]

I don't frequent this part of the boards very often, but I just need to get something off my chest.

I had 4 brothers and 2 sisters...not one of them protected me.

[sideblinded]

(((dandylin )))

I don't know your story but I can only guess that you have pain from this. Come to this site as much as you need to and get things off your chest. I am sorry that this most certainly has a story behind it.

[dandylin]

I guess there is more to this and I think this season is leaving me feeling very lonely. I have had to cut off ties with my family, in order to heal.

[dandylin]

I find myself missing what my family's facade was during the holidays. The house to be at. Where the party was. I look back now with clear vision and I see that it wasn't what I thought it looked like. I wish that I could go back to the false place. That place where I thought that I belonged. That place that destroyed me.

[BLUEDOVE]

I have 2brothers and 1sister who are as crazy as
parents were, I have jettisoned them for my own
sanity. I think the xmassy feelings/thoughts you
have are the fantasy of how you would have liked
things to have been (me too),but reality has to be
faced. Look to improve self-esteem,with ultimate
goal of self-love.
God Bless,
BLUEDOVE

[dandylin]

Thank you Bluedove, for your kind words. This is certainly bringing up some things that I thought that I had gotten past.

I am very very sorry. You deserved to be protected.

[QuietMeFromNowhere]

Originally Posted by sideblinded

(((dandylin )))

I don't know your story but I can only guess that you have pain from this. Come to this site as much as you need to and get things off your chest. I am sorry that this most certainly has a story behind it.

That is almost worse than the abuse. I remember looking out the corner of my eyes at my son, can you please distract him away fom me? But son joined in instead.
In your case they say siblings don't help, terrified of being new target. Little comfort that is.