[Bsiaraz]

Since probably the age of 7 I have experienced a strange feeling. It's a feeling of being very exposed, even in situations where I wasn't exposed at all. When I say exposed I mean naked. Like, it was an uncomfortable feeling within me that I would feel for a few seconds or minutes that made me feel like I was naked and I would inwardly cringe and it made my downstairs area feel like it was cringing too.

I am posting this because I felt this strange feeling often as a child but it got less and less as an adult, but I suddenly felt it again when I felt trapped and upset in the car. I also have to always wear a bra, even when I'm in my pajamas otherwise I feel very exposed and uncomfortable even around family.. The only person I feel comfortable around completely is my boyfriend.

I have some strange memories of a female touching my vagina regularly when I was young. Apparently this was to pick tissue out but when I think of that memory I feel deeply uncomfortable and sad.

Also I had heat rash on my groin when I was around 7 and someone demanded to see it even though I told them no.

I don't know. I feel very confused and I feel like there's more that I can't remember. I just need some advice, it's much appreciated.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Bsiaraz: I don't think there is much of anything in particular I could offer with regard to this. One thing I have come to realize, as a result of some of the reading I've done on current brain research, is that memories are a lot less reliable than we might typically imagine. So, at least personally, I think one has to be careful about assuming these kinds of memories are true & accurate.

Of course that doesn't necessarily mean they didn't happen. However it is important, I think, to approach them with caution. Perhaps spending some time delving into them, with the help of a counselor or mental health therapist, might help you to bring greater clarity to them.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!