[coldwut]

I've gotten out of a place where I didn't feel safe and my mental health suffered, and it feels weird. The people here are nice to me. However, there are times where I sort of freak out because I think I'm back in the old place and it takes me a while to realize I'm not.

I also keep expecting, or wondering when, someone is going to come into my room to yell at me or treat me poorly.

Then there's the issue of bad memories coming up.

I know the last one is intrusive memories, but I'm not really sure what the first two are. Are their any words for them, and has anyone else had these experiences.

[TerriLynn]

I completely understand. I have certain things that trigger me even though I am away from the abusive home. I think that you are just not used to not being treated badly, so you are waiting for that other shoe to drop.

I still to this day, 20 years later, nearly panic any time someone says to me, "Terri, can you come here?" cause I am just waiting to be yelled at for doing something wrong.

I totally understand how you are feeling. It may never go away completely, but it will get a lot better.

[Unrigged64072835]

It's probably going to take some time to overcome being hypervigilant. Are you working on your issues in therapy?

I still live in the house where one of my abusers lived. I evicted him several years ago. I still get spooked on occasion but it's getting better.

[coldwut]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

It's probably going to take some time to overcome being hypervigilant. Are you working on your issues in therapy?

I still live in the house where one of my abusers lived. I evicted him several years ago. I still get spooked on occasion but it's getting better.

I don't really see anyone. The only people I see is a counselor at school and a psychiatrist. I won't be able to see them until late August.

[coldwut]

Originally Posted by TerriLynn

I completely understand. I have certain things that trigger me even though I am away from the abusive home. I think that you are just not used to not being treated badly, so you are waiting for that other shoe to drop.

I still to this day, 20 years later, nearly panic any time someone says to me, "Terri, can you come here?" cause I am just waiting to be yelled at for doing something wrong.

I totally understand how you are feeling. It may never go away completely, but it will get a lot better.

Yeah, I'm really not used to how they're treating me.

I also wonder what triggers me.

There is a book that helped me so much...I think it will help you.

It's on Amazon and the title is The Gift of Fear. Priceless.