[Nuala]

It was good to hear something! To set the record straight, I was not in an abusive marriage. I am speaking of my current relationship of eight months(now over- day two) I think my self esteem was in the gutter, in some way, after my husband and I split. Especially after the multiple miscarriages. I was lonely. Maybe that's how" Mister right" slipped through my radar, or maybe it's because I met him online and by the time I really got to know him..Well there he was, an abusive person. It started very slowly. I'm just very confused by by feelings...If he's so bad for me, why do i feel so terrible leaving and why do i wish It could be otherwise? I know he won't change and I've been feeling like a terrible worthless person. I've isolated myself from many people because of his jealousy and no one seems to understand my situation-the pull that i feel. It's like I've been trying to prove to this man that i am not a bad person..I'm me after-all..Good and loyal and kind.
Has anyone else felt this way?