I'm so tired of this.. I'm trying to heal from not having been loved by my parents, but it's so difficult - I've even started to think I 'like' the misery.. Well, I don't like it, but I feel comfortable in it. I know my place in it, what I'm supposed to do, what's expected of me.. But I don't want to be miserable anymore!! I'm SO sick of it!
I want to be able to love.. Learn what it really means, how to love myself and others, let love into my life.. I KNOW it's better than what I've had, I KNOW it's ALL I need, I don't need ANY abuse, from others OR myself!! I want to be able to let the harmful people in my life go.. I NEED to let them go.. I don't want this misery anymore.
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