[SummerTime12]

I feel like something must be so wrong with me. I've been having daily memories/flashbacks of sexual assault. Today it was especially awful and I couldn't sleep as a result. This is not the worst part though.. major TMI but after the flashbacks died down, I noticed that I was sort of wet as in physically aroused. Which completely shocked and horrified me and makes me feel like I must be a sick human being. I just hate myself for this even more now. Please, someone tell me if this has ever happened before. I feel disgusted with myself and want to disappear

[zoiecat]

You are totally normal. I personally have not had this experience although I do have other equally disturbing things but I have read on this form many times are people describing the exact same thing. They are equal is horrified with themselves but don't beat yourself up it is a normal physical response nothing to be ashamed of you didn't do anything wrong doesn't make you disgusting. Flashbacks suck. If you are seeing a therapist you may want to look into EMDR therapy it really helps with the flashbacks it helps get over the trauma of the past good luck to you but remember it's totally normal and you're not gross and anyway.

[nicoleflynn]

I hope you see a therapist. We have no control over how our bodies react; that is not your fault.

[Shazerac]

I agree with seeing a therapist. Having flashbacks of sexual assault can be horrifying. Sometimes our body reacts in wierd ways including being aroused. This is normal. This does NOT means that you are a weirdo or secretly enjoyed the assault.

Please be gentle with yourself. Don't retraumatize yourself with disgust. You didn't do anything wrong and your not doing anything wrong now either.

[SummerTime12]

Thank you all so much. I do already see a therapist but I was afraid to bring up this symptom to him because it freaked me out so much