[StarburstOwl26]

I will keep this short and sweet. I am a childhood survivor of abuse. I was even abused as an adult which I used to think was my fault. Then I thought that I was targeted because people could just tell that I had already been abused before. Now, I refuse to be the victim and have promised to fight with every fiber of my being to prevent the same thing happening to my daughter. I do still have nightmares about the abuse and it can set me back sometimes but I am still here and I am still fighting. I sometimes wish I was the only person in the world who had been abused because I would not wish this on my worst enemy. Having to live with the memories in the back of my head all the time, never knowing what's going to trigger it or when. It's horrible, but I do it. I do it because I have a reason to keep going. I try not to look back. It is very hard though with the way today's society is. I am a survivor. I will always be a survivor. I will not QUIT.

[RubyRae]

That's great that you have a survivor mentally rather than a victim one and have become empowered.