Mum you left to be with him
I didn't stand a chance
you putting me first ha chances slim
in this wonderful merry dance
A broken teen with issues
you left me anyway
god knows how many tissues
I got through in that day
I moved in with my dad
we never got along
things there were so bad
feelings of suicide STRONG
still you never cared
you couldn't give a damn
so I carried on scared
and this is who i am
dad left me in the end
lived with hisw new wife
left me with noone, alone again
it cut deeper than a knife
mattress on the floor
a lonely lifeless flat
what to do? not sure
except curl up on the mat.
too scared to be on my own
mum you had me back at yours
to be put down, listen to you moan
you always locked the doors
I had no sense of home
insecurities left me bare
felt so very alone
Your heart? no love in there
constantly feeling inferior, dead
went out and looked for love
all that happened was a screwed up head
no answers from above.
your selfishness knew no bounds
your boyfriends 'tried' it with me
like history was almost coming around
just wanted to be free...
you were 'in touch' with him again
how could you be so cruel
I argued 'can;t you see my pain'
just added to your fuel.
off you went in that wretched van
FULL OF KIDS AGAIN
You ***** you knew - look what I am
a mess and full of pain
didn't stop you going though
you knew what he was doing
you knew he was going to hurt them so...
you're as much to blame for ruining -
the lives of children young and sweet
you're guilty as hell and you know
which is why you warned him I'd told the police
so he had time to go......

thanks for that mum, for protecting him, scared you'd be looked upon as bad, which is what you are, thanks - he's now free to carry on abusing, free while I'm not, and that's what you do to your only daughter......you should have been sterilised at birth you *****

as far as i'm concerned you are dead

j

[SweetCrusader]

she should never have had children. you should have had a real mom.

*safe hugs* only if wanted

thankyou (((((SC)))))))

I appreciate what you are saying, I find myself missing her, or the idea of a mother I suppose. You're right of course, she is far too selfish for anyone else in her life....

Jinny xxxx