[warrior39]

I'm so lonely. Its like every time I get time to myself, I worry about being lonely or get so lonely I don't know what else to do but cry. I'm so unfamiliar with living a life that I don't feel like I have to hide and living a life where I'm allowed to be happy, free, and myself. It scares me so much. I want a close family more than I want anything else. A healthy family and I feel like I will never get that. I feel like the only people close to me will be people that hurt me and want to use me for their own selfish reasons. I feel like I don't deserve to have healthy, loving people around me because I'm so damaged. I'm tired of holding all this hurt inside of me and being too scared to let out the real pain of it all. My life long pain of watching other people have healthy families, biological or not, while my world is so dark and I just feel like I deserve it and will never have anything better. I want to be a part of a healthy family and I want to let go of this pain, for real. I've always wanted a healthy family and I feel too broken to ever have one. I'm only good for people pleasing.

[nicoleflynn]

You deserve to be free of pain and be happy. Have you considered counseling? xo

[Fuzzybear]