[Rive1976]

I get this most uncomfortable feeling when people talk to me about the possibility of being sexually abused. Its like no other feeling. Just kind of a restless yucky feeling. Anyway my counselor said someone may have touched my body but not my spirit what does that mean?

[Betty_Banana]

I'm not really sure what your counselor meant but I think just about anyone and everyone would feel that way if someone was talking to them about possibly being sexually abused.

[Rive1976]

I dont think they would I think they would just dismiss it without any feeling at all.

[Betty_Banana]

Originally Posted by Dnester

I dont think they would I think they would just dismiss it without any feeling at all.

I highly doubt that.

Maybe some others will chime in here and we will see.Being a survivor of CSA myself I wouldn't know.But I am assuming it would make anyone uncomfortable.I'm sure it would make me feel uncomfortable even if I hadn't been.

[Betty_Banana]

I have been reading through some of your posts here at PC to try to understand this thread a little better.I don't mean to offend you but it sounds like this therapist/counselor,whatever,is making you worse not better.It sounds like the seeds have been planted in your mind that you have been sexually abused and you have become completely obsessed with it and you seem to be spiraling downward from it.I suggest you seek out a different professional and start over.This cannot be healthy for you at all.

If you were sexually abused in childhood your mind will let you remember when you are ready to and can handle it.Obviously you are not ready for that(IF it happened) because you seem to be having a hard time with just the possibility of it.You should be working with any symptoms and problems you are having in the present instead of focusing on the "possible CSA".

Run for the hills.Find a different counselor.

[Rive1976]

She didnt put this in my mind. I have felt like something happened to me long before I saw her. Ive had other psychiatrists and counselors suggest I was. The only thing she has really suggested any different was saying it was a certain person without knowing (my mom).

[Betty_Banana]

Originally Posted by Dnester

She didnt put this in my mind. I have felt like something happened to me long before I saw her. Ive had other psychiatrists and counselors suggest I was. The only thing she has really suggested any different was saying it was a certain person without knowing (my mom).

Then you kinda already knpw/feel/believe you were sexually abused,right?

It's very dangerous for her to suggest it could have been your mom.That can create false memories.

Is she pushing you to remember who and what happened?That can be dangerous too.It's best to work on the symptoms rather than the who/what/when/where.Like I said,you will remember when your mind is ready to handle and deal with it.

[Rive1976]

Shes not pushing me. When I ask why this or that might be going on she will say well you already know what I think ( that my mother abused me). She told me last session that she thinks that I was abused but she also thinks some of my symptoms may be due to Autism (high functioning). She said everything doesnt have to be about one thing. She also said we can work with how I want my life to be without knowing. That doesnt fly for me. Because I have harmed and I dont know where that came from.