[Healani77]

After been sorted out out of 6 other siblings. I was choosen for sickness to be preyed on ME WHY? STILL TO THIS DAY NOBODY BUT GOD KNOWS THE TRUTH. YOU NO ITS FAIR TO SAY I FORGIVE BUT NOT ONLY DO I FORGIVE GOD CREATURE HE PLANNED MY CHILDHOOD WITH. THE PERSON WHO WAS TOO PROTECT Her child. When your abused as a child and noone does the right thing To help that child I grew up looking at every one whom had any remarks about my mom doing this to me. Al I asked was well what did you do to STOP IT. IM SO CONFLICTED I WISH I CAN SUE HER FOR DAMAGES . HAVING TO GO THROUGH LIFE WITH BATTLE SCARS AN NO TOES.WHILE SHE OUT OF PRISON ENJOYING HER SELF.MY SPIRITS OR MY HEART ITS BEEN GONE. ALL I FEEL IS THE TIME THAT I HV LEFT ON EARTH TO FIND THE RIGHT THERAPIST TO HELP ME RELEASE AND TAKE ME BACK TO THE AWFUL DAY IT HAPPEN SO I CAN FILL IN THESE BITS OF MEMORIES I BEEN HAVING. MY MIND AT EASE I'M READY BOILING A TUB WITH HOT WATER AN HELD MY TODDLER BODY DWN IN IT A SITTING POSITION. I HV 2 TOES AN DISFIGURED WAIST ON DWN . JESUS MAKES NO MISTAKES RIGHT ? UNDERSTAND ALOT NOW IM NEVER GONNA EXCEPT THE LOVE FROM CERTAIN ONES THAT WAS AROUND AN WAITED FOR THIS SICK ANIMAL CALLED MOM DO THIS TRAUMATIZED SATANIC ABUSE TO ME. YEA I NEED TOOLS I NEED TO DISSOCIATE MY TIMELINE. GUESSING OVER WITH LIES ALL I HEARD. MY GRANDMA ONLY ONE SHOWED ME PICTURES AND DIDNT FORCE IT ON ME WITH WAT HER DAUGHTER DID BUT SHE DEAD AN INEED TO BE PUT UNDER NOW AS A ADULT I NEED HELP WITH THAT. THATS IT

[Travelinglady]

I'm so sorry that happened to you. Yes, please find a therapist to help you with all this.