[TishaBuv]

No one apologized or made anything right, but I chose to forgive and forget but not fall into it again. At this point, I choose to look at the whole life of the relationships. These were people who did many loving acts. Ok, so they did something extremely unloving and couldn’t care less about how that hurt me. Still, for the sake of living and moving forward, I chose to sort of let it go and be civil, even be warm.

But I am sure smarter now. I know what I am dealing with and won’t set myself up to fall into it again. You can only be naive once.

I’m feeling good about where I am at now.

I came through all this with no therapist and have enjoyed venting and getting support here. The human spirit can heal.

Plus the anxiety med must be what I needed.

Still, the fallout was very real. My perception is accurate.

I’ve gone through quite a lot of emotional stuff over a long time and now feel like I am on solid ground.