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A few days ago was an Anniversary for getting back with my Abuser. I was crying throughout the entire day and was feeling very low. At first, it didn't seem to come to my attention until I realized the date and remember how I took my boyfriend back around that time and realized that's why I was so upset and depressed. Sometimes I still blame myself for going back to my ex-boyfriend, but at that time, I was still very much in love with him and thought everything was my fault because he convinced me it was always my fault. It's very hard for people to wrap their heads around this and why we always seem to go back to our abusers. Trust me, it's still confusing for me too. All I know is that I truly loved him and he manipulated and gaslighted me for years, that I actually started to believe that everyone was my fault. It may be hard for people to take in who hasn't been in this type of situation before, but I'm tired of beating myself up over this. I've been beating myself for four years so far and I'm now beginning to heal thanks to my therapist. I told her about this during my appointment and she said it makes perfect sense why I was reacting the way I was, especially when it's an Anniversary Date.
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Dear Amethyst_Stargazer,
Having been in that situation, I definitely agree with everything you wrote. Everything! Sincerely yours, Yao Wen |
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