advertisement
Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
Amethyst_Stargazer
Member
 
Amethyst_Stargazer's Avatar
Amethyst_Stargazer has no updates.
 
Member Since: Oct 2016
Location: Florida USA
Posts: 365
5 yr Member
56 hugs
given
Default May 10, 2021 at 07:56 PM
  #1
A few days ago was an Anniversary for getting back with my Abuser. I was crying throughout the entire day and was feeling very low. At first, it didn't seem to come to my attention until I realized the date and remember how I took my boyfriend back around that time and realized that's why I was so upset and depressed. Sometimes I still blame myself for going back to my ex-boyfriend, but at that time, I was still very much in love with him and thought everything was my fault because he convinced me it was always my fault. It's very hard for people to wrap their heads around this and why we always seem to go back to our abusers. Trust me, it's still confusing for me too. All I know is that I truly loved him and he manipulated and gaslighted me for years, that I actually started to believe that everyone was my fault. It may be hard for people to take in who hasn't been in this type of situation before, but I'm tired of beating myself up over this. I've been beating myself for four years so far and I'm now beginning to heal thanks to my therapist. I told her about this during my appointment and she said it makes perfect sense why I was reacting the way I was, especially when it's an Anniversary Date.
Amethyst_Stargazer is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Fuzzybear, Yaowen

advertisement
Yaowen
Grand Magnate
 
Yaowen's Avatar
Yaowen has no updates.
 
Member Since: Jan 2020
Location: USA
Posts: 3,618 (SuperPoster!)
3 yr Member
6,475 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 10, 2021 at 08:03 PM
  #2
Dear Amethyst_Stargazer,

Having been in that situation, I definitely agree with everything you wrote. Everything!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen
Yaowen is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Fuzzybear
Fuzzybear
Wisest Elder Ever
 
Fuzzybear's Avatar
Fuzzybear has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2002
Location: Cave.
Posts: 96,301 (SuperPoster!)
20 yr Member
81.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 13, 2021 at 05:19 PM
  #3

__________________
Fuzzybear is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
All times are GMT -5. The time now is 10:52 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2024, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.



 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.