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Magnate
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Jan 29, 2008 at 09:34 PM
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Please take care when reading. I don't want anyone to get triggered.
I was being molested by my step-grandfather and I can remember when I was younger that I would tell people it happened from about the age of 8 til I was 12, but now I only remember two specific times and I think I was about 10. I often question my own memories. There are times where I think about what he did and think about how disgusted I am with his actions. Then there is that kid in me that loved the attention and as sick as it is, it felt good. I mean, it physically felt pleasurable to have his hands down there. I was 12 when it finally all came out. I had told my older sister. I was in a temporary group home where I was supposed to be for a short period of time. My sis came over because someone told her to talk to me to see if anything happened. I told her that he was touching me. I told her how long it was going on and I told her not to tell anyone. Of course she didn’t listen and told the group home. They made my dad come get me. I told him what happened and he believed me…..until I told my step-mom. She freaked out and called me a liar and said that her father “could NEVER do something like that”. That was when my father decided that he wasn’t going to believe me anymore. After that time, I never talked about it with them. In fact, I haven’t ever really talked about what happened and how I feel about it. Mind you, I am pretty emotionless about it now and don’t have any qualms stating the facts. Anyways, I just really wanted to get that out! Thanks for reading. Only Me __________________ "The mind is like a parachute. It doesn’t work unless it’s open."  Don’t look where you fall, but where you slipped. 
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Jan 29, 2008 at 11:39 PM
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nothing like insult upon injury huh? the great challenge is to process what happened and be able to move on with your life kind of matter o factly...basicly coming to terms with it, something on the order of "it happened, he's a creep, and my dad chose his wife over me." I choose to no longer have them in my life and perhaps some day will be able to feel pity for them instead of what I feel now,best of luck there. God Bless You...
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Jan 30, 2008 at 12:19 AM
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im so sorry for what you went through. I can't imagine how painful it must have been not to have been believed. Just want to send you my support.
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Magnate
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Jan 30, 2008 at 01:20 PM
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Thanks, you two! It's nice to know that you care!
__________________ "The mind is like a parachute. It doesn’t work unless it’s open." Don’t look where you fall, but where you slipped.
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Jan 30, 2008 at 02:59 PM
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Hey only. I just wanted to thank you for sharing that. I know it's hard and I'm so sorry that happened to you.
Cyran0 __________________ My blog: http://cyran0.psychcentral.net/ Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD (childhood physical/sexual abuse), history of drug abuse. Meds: Zoloft, Lorazapam, Coffee, Cigarettes "I may climb perhaps to no great heights, but I will climb alone." -Cyrano de Bergerac |
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Magnate
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Jan 31, 2008 at 11:27 AM
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Thanks. It can be very hard and I am just so glad that I can come here and share so much without feeling judged or bad.
__________________ "The mind is like a parachute. It doesn’t work unless it’s open." Don’t look where you fall, but where you slipped.
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Feb 04, 2008 at 02:19 AM
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i am sorry, so sorry, i know my being sorry doesn't help you, so i just want you to know that I am listening to you and I believe you.
I find myself sometimes just needing to know that someone really hears me, because my voice has for so long been silenced.... I hear you ONLYMEDID and, you will be in my thoughts 
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