Verbal abuse

My mom said very mean things to me. One way I can help myself is to compare how I used to be with what I am. Only then I’ll be able to appreciate myself for how hard I’ve worked to overcome the stress associated with getting shouted at.
I need to see how to do that.

The Verbally Abusive Relationship by Patricia Evans saved my life. People who are abusive are very insecure and they don't like themselves, so they take it out on others.

I have posted in other places about the things my mom said to me. See, it was a long time ago, but maybe it’s still creeping up in my psyche? Anyway, I’m trying to do stretching, yoga and eye exercises for the trauma. But the dizziness won’t go. And there’s a long way till I get any motivation to do things… I have made a list of things to do. One is, try out different activities to see what fits me in terms of a career. So I’ll have an idea what to study. But I don’t feel like getting up and doing those things. Now, I know that action leads to motivation, and I need to break down things to make it easier, but even that is tiring! Don’t know where to start. I already am seeing a therapist and she told me to make a schedule but it’s close to impossible. I mean I tried. All I could do was a morning routine. My morning routine has making my bed, using the bathroom, exercising, cooking and sunbathing in it. Beautiful routine, to be honest. I am planning to add an extra step- studying! Which is the hardest thing for me! Sigh. Breaking it down, I could start with self help books. I wanna read Ikigai. Hopefully this routine will help me study.

Have you tried TODOIST? it is available for free, both in the browser and as an app. Your morning routine indeed is beautiful and actually quite elaborate. I am thinking that if you were able to develop such an elaborate routine, you are capable of many things!