How to deal with abuse

Had a decent day. Making some progress on my app (thanks to the help of others).

I watched and boy does it resonate with me.

Today's the day. Or better said, tonight. At 8pm I'll move to the new room. Fingers crossed for:
• having decent roommates
• no abuse of any kind
• having a place to store my belongings
• being able to rest
• a clean bathroom

Move moved to 8:30pm. Let's gooo! 2 hours and 25 minutes remaining.

Also, why are highlights from Roland Garros soooo short? Ugh!

Moved to the new room. It's just me and this other guy. He was suspiciously quiet. Asked him to help me move the bunk bed so I can get my extender pulled to the bed. He helped. Made some remarks about having the extender pulled to the bed, wrapped around the steel bars not being safe. I'm not fully confident he's safe. I fear sexual abuse. I'll have to wait and see. Fingers crossed.

New room, new roommate. Moved in yesterday at 8:30pm. Bathroom clean, room not so clean (pile of clothes) - however, there are no bad odors, surprisingly, roommate, J., doesn't seem to steal (didn't go through my stuff, at least for now), night was ok - no funny things attempted. Will have to see with more time passing how things develop.

Well, things aren't that bad. It seems the guy minds his own business even if he has C-PTSD. So far, I had no issues. Today I made some progress regarding my app. Treated myself in a new York style shop by getting a vegan chocolate donut with a decaf oat latte. Tomorrow will be nice.

Feeling constantly exhausted and burned out. I managed to work a few hours today. Wished I could do more (2 more hours). I'm thinking of coopting someone into the project. Asked ChatGPT to draft an NDA for me.

This new potential partner is interested (I wrote to him just in time - he graduated this year). I contacted a lawyer in order for us to review the NDA drafted by ChatGPT and also a partnership contract, also drafted by ChatGPT. I'm sure they'll require more work, and I hope the costs won't be too high. Fingers crossed.

My shelter roommate has been away since Friday. It's nice to get some alone time in the room. If it would have been like this most of the time, it would have been great.

Searching for a movie to watch, though most of them are garbage. So hard to find a nice movie nowadays. On Friday (?), I watched Hitch. Classic. And it's interesting to see how I moved from that to psychology as I grew up. Saw Apollo 11 documentary a few times. I'll leave it for another time. Oppenheimer saw it at least a dozen times, I deleted the download (it was getting too much). However! What I'm waiting for is inside out 2. Which! Will be available for rent in August or early October. Ugh! Dying over here!
ChatGPT generated a list of movies set in New York from the 90s onwards, and can't find one that I like. They're all with crime, gangs, fantasy or affairs. I think I'll go with Sex and the City. I'll probably regret it. Oh, well...

No movies today. I watched

Listened to Unsupported browser - such a good episode. Reflects C-PTSD implications for a society so well.

I’m so sorry you are going through this. I really feel for you. I live in a group home and I know it can be difficult.

Thank you, @Raven1976 . What's a group home?

Tonight was the first rough night in the new room. Not a big issue per se, though it left me finding sleep difficult and that is: snoring. My roommate was snoring so loud that it woke me up!

@CTSDVictim: I am very sorry you are struggling, and that sounds like a tumultuous environment. I feel guilty sometimes about my work, writing, and inheritance. I own two homes and have property all over the place. I have always been able to afford the best healthcare. I know some go to group homes for therapeutic reasons, some for health reasons and circumstances. I sit in my house with an RN on duty. There is always one here, even now. For whatever reason/s, you live there. If it is because you have to be, I would give you one of my homes. Why should I need more than one? Please be well; I have C-PTSD, so I know that battlefield well.

Thank you for your kind words. I hope you're feeling as best as it's possible in your fight against cancer. I don't know how it's like, but I can only imagine C-PTSD makes it so much more difficult.

I'm glad you have an RN on duty. Human connection is in the very (social) fabric of ours. Even for anti-socials like myself.

It’s a place where you can live if you are on disability. A house with other residents. They manage your meds, cook, clean etc for you. I’m on disability for depression and anxiety. Been on it since 2016. The first place I lived had 86 people. This place has 11.

Wow. And are the other residents on disability too?

Today was awesome. Yesterday I received my voting card so this morning I went to vote in the local elections. Unfortunately, due to lack of documents, as a homeless, I could vote only in the local elections. Still good! I don't feel totally out of power and that others decide for me.

I also made significant progress on my app. I might get to finish (90%) one portion of the app. I thought I wouldn't sort out an issue I was encountering, though successfully figured it out on my own.

Also, my roommates snoring hasn't been so bad as when I was woken up by it. Got some good Z's despite stress regarding solving problems for my app.

And, I managed to find peanuts. I bought two bags. My finances are also in check. To top it all, Roland Garros has been full of surprises, and in the positive way.

Tomorrow I'll, hopefully, close out the week in a nice manner. Fingers crossed for the exit poll to turn out for the future and not going backward.

Yes you have to be in disability. Can you get on it?

Interesting. Sorry to hear you're going through unpleasant moments. It's good that there is dedicated housing for folks on disability. I researched, where I live, and seems there's housing services but for adults and children with intellectual
disability, autism and or acquired brain injury. Me, with C-PTSD (and on disability for PTSD), wouldn't be accepted.

Where do you live? If you are on disability you absolutely can. Do you take meds for it?

I live outside the USA. I'm not on medication for my disability. I'm on medication, however, for psychosis.

Listened to Unsupported browser - such a good episode

Listened to Unsupported browser - a good podcast episode featuring Tim Fletcher

Listened to Unsupported browser

Pretty good episode on the ACEs study.