My brothers destroyed my life

fairies123 · May 28, 2024 at 12:46 AM

Two brothers, three step brothers. Both brothers took advantage of me sexually. One of my step brothers took advantage of me sexually. Another step-brother was forced by my other step-brother to abuse me and was abused himself. What happened is a lot to explain. There have been at least 20-30 experiences throughout my aging of 7-18(now) where my brothers exhibitied pedophilic and/or incestuous behavior.

trigger warning for tabbo and unconsensual sexual topics
I don't know how personal people get on this app. I know the **** I've gotta talk to someone about is incredibly personal. And being that i'm anon i'm just going to spit it out.

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The things did to me made me attracted to disgusting fantasies of me or someone else who is vulnerable being taken advantage of. i've been sexually active with boyfriends throughout time, but i always felt like something was wrong. I came to realize i dont really feel attracted to good men or healthy sex or healthy relationship. I was attracted to my boyfriends but sex was only enjoyable if i imagined it was rape. Girls always would talk about guys with me and how cute and hot they are meanwhile I was attracted to disgusting, ugly, obese, old men that were desperate. I'm at a point where i am unable to get off unless i imagine the things my brothers would probably have done to me if they had the opportunity. I live with two of them. I dont know why i'm on the website or typing all of this out. I'm high and just dont know what to do with myself.

TheGal · May 28, 2024 at 01:33 PM

I'm so sorry for what you've been through...

I hope you find support, not only on MSF, but in especially real life with a psychologist who does trauma therapy, including EMDR and EFT-tapping therapies.

Stay strong...

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TheGal Poohbah Member Since Aug 2022 Location: The House Posts: 1,200 2 819 hugs given	May 28, 2024 at 01:33 PM #2 I'm so sorry for what you've been through... I hope you find support, not only on MSF, but in especially real life with a psychologist who does trauma therapy, including EMDR and EFT-tapping therapies. Stay strong...
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