[MajesticStarr]

Hi - I'm new to this forum. I was physically, mentally, and verbally abused by both my parents all throughout my childhood. They're still mentally & verbally abusive toward me. The physical stuff stopped when I moved out of their house. I recently cut ties to my parents, I haven't spoken to them in 2 months. I'm feeling a lot less stressed since I stopped talking to them, but I'm so much more depressed since I've been thinking about how long they've been abusing me and how bad it really was. I think I really never wanted to admit to myself how bad the situation was or just never let myself think about it until now. I'm living with my SO of nearly 7 years and he's very supportive and he's good with listening to me vent or just get things out in the open. But I don't think he really understands because he's never been there.

I'm just rambling, I really don't know where I'm going with this post. I'm really glad I found this board.

[Sam]

Hello MajesticStarr and welcome! I too am glad you found this wonderful forum. I think you will find many good people here and lots of support.

I'm sorry you experienced abuse. To be honest - there is, nor can there ever be any excuse for one person to abuse another. I have experienced verbal abuse, so I do know something about what you are talking about.

The very first piece of advice I would send your way is this ... Think positive! I know it takes work, but it can be done. There are books, cd's and casstte tapes on positive thinking, of speakers - moviators that can do a very wonderful job. At present, I'm listening to Charlie T. Jones on Managing Your Life.

There is nothing you can do to change the past and all that occurred in it, but you can do something about the present and future. So try to not dwell on what took place but rather a plan to improve your life.

Things you can do other than reading/watching positive moviators (as they only do so much) is to remove yourself from those that abuse you so (and you have done that - BRAVO girlfriend!). I think you are very brave and committed to make such a step. I appauld you.

Surround yourself with people that are supportive and positive (theres that word again - positive) and hold onto that man of yours. He will take you a long way, and please, by all means, stay in touch with us here and keep us informed how your life is.

He may or may not be able to understand what you went thru, but you can bet he loves you and is there for you, and that is a really big thing. Be sure to give him a big hug and let him know he is your rock. Love can conquer anything, so you hang in there.

Your friend,
Sam

"You'll never know what you're capable of if you don't try."

[jennie]

don't feel alone here. many of us can relate to the shameful feelings you have deep inside of you. this is a good place to let out those feelings. we have a poetry section here where you can post poems. there's other creative ways you can express yourself through art and music. i guess what i'm writing about is it's okay to feel these things, to vent. we'll be here. (((((((((Huggs))))))))

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[john4]

Hi MajesticStarr and a big hug for a welcome! Glad you found the site, please stay with us and together we can get to our real selves. Hope we will see you again and again. Good luck.