[jai-jai]

He sent me an abusive text - saying i was tin trouble when i get home, and i'm scared it might be because he opened the letter, i don't know - i'm surprisingly calm right now, but im terrified of whats going to happen, this cannot happen anymore.

I'm too scared to talk to anyone else about it, he'll find a way of getting to me, i can't help feeling scared, but it really hurts, becuase he's so two faced about everything - like a split personality in a way.

I can't deal with him, he hurts me, he hates me, and he doesn't care if i'm alive or not, as long as he can take his anger out or his just...pure sick mind to feed on me - the pain it causes me.

My mum doesn't care - she's known it's gone one for a long time, but i can't see why doesn't get rid of him, they are very apart then are very together, thats how their relationship works, but this is just..not right is it? maybe it's my fault?? maybe i'm not ment to be here, maybe i'm just not worth anything??

How i hate the way they are, i want to be free from all that hurts, but it seems impossible to move away from it, they are my parents, they should care for me still - what goes through their mind??

[darkrunner]

((((((((((((((((((jai-jai)))))))))))))))))))

I'm concerned for you. Can you go to the police or something like Children and Youth Services (whatwe have in the US)?
You do not deserve to be hurt. It is not your fault. It sounds like you are in a bad situation and you need help. Just because they're your parents, doesn't give them the right to hurt you or ignore it if you're being hurt.
Please stay safe.

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Call child line hun they have people who are trained to help you they will give you fantastic advice. You can call this number from your mum and dads tel and it wont show on the itemised bill its a free call as well and it is manned day and night. You do not have to give your name if you dont want to either however it is all confidential they wont do anything without your permission.

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[Malachite]

Dear Jai-Jai,

You need to separate yourself, from those who cause you harm, regardless, of who they are. Please, do as Tishie recommends; call Childline. Apprize them of your plight. Please, make them fully aware of what is going on with you. Don't omit, or play down any aspects. You need to be brutally honest.

You have my support,

Larry

[madisgram]

(((JAI JAI))) good positive direction...call that childline number and let them protect you and give you good direction. you need help. no one should have to live in fear of their own parents or anyone else!!!

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((((Jai Jai))))

Hun, our concern for you is real. Please reach out for the childline and for whatever help you can. This is NOT your fault in any way. You do deserve to be here and to get help. Know that we are all right here pulling for you and holding you up, but you have to reach for the help there is. We are here for you and waiting to know you are okay. Tishie is right, you will be okay as it is confidential--they will not hurt you. You do not deserve to be hurt by ANYONE--your parents or anyone. No one has the right to hurt you. We are here. You are not alone. I know it is hard, I have been where you are--but you can find the strength within yourself to reach deep inside. I am sure trust is gone but please just find it in yourself to trust once more within--you can do it. We are here for you.

dps

[jai-jai]

Thank you all

I'm still scared to talk to them, I can't face the truth it's too much to deal with right now.
I guess i'm just hoping it will all just go away, I know it won't.

I need to concentrate on my work, they don't understand here at college

[nowheretorun]

Originally Posted by jai-jai

Thank you all

I'm still scared to talk to them, I can't face the truth it's too much to deal with right now.
I guess i'm just hoping it will all just go away, I know it won't.

I need to concentrate on my work, they don't understand here at college

until you face the truth this problem will keep coming back to you... its time to move forward in healing before it compounds

[Pomegranate]

Hi jai-jai,

I agree with all the advice everyone else has given. Reading your most current reply, you mention you are in college. Don't they have mental health services available there? You could consider checking that out and give it a try. Seek help from someone, or some organization that can help you.

If you are like me, when I first began to deal with this problem I felt a whole bunch of mixed up emotions and very, very fearful. It felt worse - at times I was sorry I was trying to get help for myself because the pain and rejection I felt was so bad. But in the long run it was the right thing to do and I'm much better off for seeking help and taking care of myself. I hope you do the same. Take Care.

[lynn P.]

Hi Jai-Jai,
Firstly I would have to agree with everyones advice. Some times when we're very stressed problems seem huge especially when we're young. You haven't mentioned what is the exact problem you're having with your parents. Do they physically or mentally abuse you?. I'm sure there are support services at your college and you need to start there. You also need to visit your family doctor and confide in him/her. Are there any other family members you could talk to. Also since you are of college age you could seek government assistance and live on your own. I don't know how bad it is for you at home and whether it's dangerous for you to be there or not. Your parents should not be mean to you- they should unconditionally love you. Get help and tell the appropriate people. Be strong and you can solve this - you deserve it!