[anderson]

This is our rant we needed soft color. we try so hard to belong want to write a book not for us but to let others know what it is like to be treated like you have schizophania and not Mpd . those two are so close but not same can you seethat both hear voices both lose time but not same. We cry not just for us but our son. We feel so alone. so use to peopl turn away from us but no one hears us. in the real world not here. even when we just read we at least know that we are no longer alone. the people in our lives, they try but there are still days that no one understand we so sad. we write from other people because we afriad to say what is on our mind. the little so lonely until we come here and worked with animals. the don't care they just love you no matter what. the change in our small parts was so major that we could slept at night. they were crying so much, no matter what we tried we could not give them comfort because the ones in our lives where told not to respond to them thats why we so happy hen people talk with us. No matter what we say nothing changes nothing gives. This page gives us something but we scared too. Will this be like all the other places. or will we be able to move on. When will we find safe place, safe home. I don't know just know we are not feeling well today and just wanted to say how we feel

[Hunny]

Anderson: how you feel is so fine to say soft colours back to you. We never know quite how to write feelings of safety very well but would like to bring whatever we have to guard the 'truth of knowledge' upon you and your son and on us and the others here who have parts but are not are the schizophania (very nice) people. Many differences is the top of the iceberg and a few similarities is how we know it to be so between the two.

So how can we take a safe place to them so they don't fear being near? We are not sure. When they grow a little more in thinking and caring about (our nice) differences is when it might happen, we hope and long for.

When we read here we no longer are alone either, sometimes just keeping a page open to friends, who know words about things like we have been through makes us feel comforted. Like sitting with a page of a book open and thinking about them is how we see it. Mostly smiles come.

Seems like we always try for someone to believe us, some mix of caring and knowing and then healing and helping. We will write our story here, when we bring our courage part to here soon. Its like we are a ball or a planet or a moon and we have to wait till that part of the ball, planet or moon comes back around. So, you won't be alone from this planet too much longer in that way, anyway. We never understand why the emoticons always look so grown up to us, otherwise we would send you a kid hug back but till they make little people faces we have to use the big hugs. and

PS we are pretty sure we are too little to know this stuff but we had to find out about it for ourself.

[Elysium]

(((((Anderson)))))

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. We know what it is like not to feel safe and secure. We living with someone now in their house and we don't have our own space in the world anymore and we scared about that. But we moving I hopes so we will get own space back.

Please keep staying here with us. We like to hear from you. You can talk with us whenever you want...even if you just need someone to sit with.

Take good care!!