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Jul 13, 2019, 09:48 AM
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As I sit here consumed with guilt and fear I wonder if I will ever NOT be depressed and full or worry. I'm 39, morbidly obese and have two wonderful kids that I am not ready to leave behind. I just had an echocardiogram yesterday and wont have my results until next Friday and I'm unsure of how to go about these days of waiting and worrying. I know I need to exercise, but what if something is wrong with my heart? Maybe I should just stay in bed like I always do...either laying down playing on my phone or sitting up playing cards with my son who is 14 and just wants to see his mom well. I dont find real interest in anything anymore and it scares me to think that I'll be stuck like this forever. It's causing me to question my faith. Why would God create a person just to suffer day in and day out? I'm angry and bitter as I watch others live so easily. I'm lonely. I'm afraid. Getting to the point where I almost just don't want to care because I'm not enjoying my life anyway so what does it matter if it ended? Not suicidal, just the whole going to sleep hoping not to wake up scenario.
Has anyone else faced all of this? Anyone have heart disease at a young age? I suspect I do but friday will tell me what's going on. Thanks for reading. |
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Jul 13, 2019, 01:44 PM
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Hello dorithyvee: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC.
 I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central.  Two additional forums, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the health support forum & the healthy parenting forum. Here are links to these forums:https://psychcentralforums.com/health-support/ https://psychcentralforums.com/healthy-parenting/ And then here are links to 2 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of treatment resistant depression: About Treatment Resistant Depression (TRD) What You Need to Know About Treatment-Resistant Depression Lastly I thought I would also draw your attention to this Psych-Central-supported website for people with unrelenting depression & anxiety: Project Hope & Beyond I hope you find PC to be of benefit. 
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Nov 30, 2019, 09:38 PM
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