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Default Jan 04, 2020 at 02:02 PM
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Today I am really fatigued. I had a Caesars salad for lunch and I kid you not, my jaws kept getting tired.

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I am working on trying it right now. I have to get the insurance and transportation all coordinated

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I am working on trying it right now. I have to get the insurance and transportation all coordinated
Cool. Feel free to post here your experience as well. It's different for everyone.

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Today I did my 4th infusion. I just got home and I'm still numb.

Ketamine is an anesthetic. You lose the feeling in your body completely.

This time I know they upped the dosage because it's taking a long time to wear off.
This time I had an out of body experience. It felt like i was floating. I was kind of dreading it a little before i went but now I'm glad I did it. It's not so scary now because I know what to expect.

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Great news, how many more are you going to have ?

I have been wondering how you have been doing ?
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Great news, how many more are you going to have ?

I have been wondering how you have been doing ?
I'll do 6 treatments over three weeks - today was my fourth, so I have one week to go. My appts next week are wednesday and friday.

At that point we will reassess. I may need to do a treatment a week for 4 weeks after this. It's my understanding that from that point on I only have to go when I feel the depression coming back.

Overall, it's not too bad tho I would not call it fun, it is definitely an experience. The only real side effect I seem to have is extreme fatigue. I'm as weak as a newborn kitten at times and just running errands with my husband is enough to wipe me out. Other than that, I don't really know for sure if I am actually at death's door during the treatments, I just know it feels that way, but not in a scary way, if that makes any sense. Again, it's really difficult to describe.

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Oh. And it's really freaky walking out of the place when I can't even feel my feet! It took longer to wear off which makes me think they really upped the dosage, but until I talk to the doctor, I won't know for sure but I'm going to find out. .

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I would try basically anything short of a prefrontal lobotomy as long as it was recommended by a medical doctor. I wish you the best of luck in your path. I hope it continues to work and that you become well.
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I would try basically anything short of a prefrontal lobotomy as long as it was recommended by a medical doctor. I wish you the best of luck in your path. I hope it continues to work and that you become well.
I know the feeling. I'm so desperate. My diagnoses reads like alphabet soup. ADHD, PTSD, OCD, GAD, AND BIPOLAR 2. That's all I can remember. I've had 4 incidences of suicidal intentions just this year. I was hospitalized in May. The last time I attempted it was in 2016. I've tried to kill myself 4 times. I was 15 the first time. I'm now 57 and I won't live to see 60 at this rate.

My son tells me I'm the strongest person he's ever known. He said when your carrying around 500 lbs on your back, you have to expect that your going to fall down occasionally.

If I fall down again, i doubt I'll get back up again. I'm very, very tired of my own brain.

I am starting to feel better. It's very subtle, though. I noticed that while i still have some anxiety, i no longer feel like there's an elephant sitting on my chest. I'll take it! I've not had a depressive episode since starting the infusions, but Its only been 2 weeks

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Thank you for the update Werewoman. i am scared to try anything new anymore ... nothing works for me.
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Thank you for the update Werewoman. i am scared to try anything new anymore ... nothing works for me.
Nothing ever worked for me either. That's why I chose ketamine infusions as a last resort. The Spravato, I think, is for people not quite as severe as I am. The doctor mentioned we might go over to Spravato in the future as maintenance.

I'm going in tomorrow morning for my 5th treatment. I'm trying not to get nervous about it. The last time was so intense, I have to keep telling myself that this will not kill me.

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I did the 5th infusion today. I'm actually starting to get used to it. This time they bumped me up to 75. I found out they start you out at 35, so they were upping it every time I went in. I'm not sure what the unit of measure is - I think it's in micrograms. This time I definitely felt like I was having an out of body experience though it doesn't last long. I am starting to feel better. My mind is not so cluttered anymore. I can think straight without a lot of negative emotions weighing me down.

Right now my life is a wreck. I doubt my marriage will last much longer. I can't handle fighting anymore. I'm not going to fight with him, I'm done with that. It would be better if my life were better I'm sure.

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Werewomen you are so very strong and I hope you continue to feel even better, I would be so very scared.

Looking forward to your next update.

If you don't mind I will say a prayer for you and me to, and others who suffer.
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Werewomen you are so very strong and I hope you continue to feel even better, I would be so very scared.

Looking forward to your next update.

If you don't mind I will say a prayer for you and me to, and others who suffer.
Prayers are always welcome. My dad prayed that I would find a cure. I may have. I've discovered I can't cry. Literally. I cannot.

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Yeah is bad as I feel I can't cry either. I will keep the prayers coming even though I have been losing my faith because of the turmoil my lift has become - why all the suffering ?

Hope your 6th infusion tomorrow helps - are you feeling better than before you started ? I wonder how long these feelings will last, I hope it's a true cure ?
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Yeah is bad as I feel I can't cry either. I will keep the prayers coming even though I have been losing my faith because of the turmoil my lift has become - why all the suffering ?

Hope your 6th infusion tomorrow helps - are you feeling better than before you started ? I wonder how long these feelings will last, I hope it's a true cure ?
Why all the suffering? It serves no useful purpose as far as I can see. Yeah, maybe it does make you stronger, but if that's the only way to learn to be stronger, I'd rather be weak, thank you very much.

I am definitely better. Before I was severely depressed and extremely suicidal. Now I'm happier I think. I haven't had a major depressive episode since starting the treatments and I rarely go two weeks without one, so there's that. My OCD seems better and so does my anxiety, though both are still bad enough to be disruptive.

Overall though, I have to say, I am glad I'm doing this. It may not be The Cure, but its damn close. I'll take any improvement I can get.

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If you have TRD, treatment resistant depression, don't walk, RUN to the nearest ketamine clinic. Cost varies quite a bit. The clinic I go to is $500 per infusion. I had to pay $170 for each treatment. Insurance covered the rest. Yes, it's expensive. Borrow the money, run up your credit cards, whatever it takes, but get to a clinic.

It was scary at first because I didn't know what to expect. Ketamine is a powerful drug. It's my understanding that it's used as a street drug. I can't imagine anyone abusing it. It literally numbs your body and your emotions. It takes you to the place where nothing hurts.

I hope this thread has been helpful for anyone suffering as I once did. Feel free to post your experience.

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If you have TRD, treatment resistant depression, don't walk, RUN to the nearest ketamine clinic. Cost varies quite a bit. The clinic I go to is $500 per infusion. I had to pay $170 for each treatment. Insurance covered the rest. Yes, it's expensive. Borrow the money, run up your credit cards, whatever it takes, but get to a clinic.

It was scary at first because I didn't know what to expect. Ketamine is a powerful drug. It's my understanding that it's used as a street drug. I can't imagine anyone abusing it. It literally numbs your body and your emotions. It takes you to the place where nothing hurts.

I hope this thread has been helpful for anyone suffering as I once did. Feel free to post your experience.

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That's great news I hope it last, PLEASE keep us posted on how you feel over the next few weeks, I am vert curious but concerned since it does not work for everyone and I might be one of those.

Were you on any meds. and if so did they allow you to remain on them ?
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That's great news I hope it last, PLEASE keep us posted on how you feel over the next few weeks, I am vert curious but concerned since it does not work for everyone and I might be one of those.

Were you on any meds. and if so did they allow you to remain on them ?
I'm on 3 anti-depressants , 3 anti-anxiety, and an antipsychotic. The plan is to get me down to one anti-depressants.

From here on out, I only do it as I need it. I scheduled for next week already.

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