thinking more and more of wanting a baby...

I have been currently really thinking and considering getting pregnant more. I understand that this time in your life will be both a good and possibly potentially good or bad time t even think of doing it.

All I know is I have always wanted to try to have kids and right now in my life I am with someone who feels for the most part the same.

Its scary trying to deal with all my mental disorders and my past health issues.
with seizures. I know to a degree not only would I need to speak to my gyno but possibly get a hold of a neurologist again since my seizures were tied into my hormones.
Even though the seizures were never diagnosed they always told me if I wanted to do the whole havin kids thing I would be high risk....so yeah lots and lots to think about.

Do you have a therapist or trusted spiritual leader who might help you?

The thing that concerns me most is that your partner "for the most part" also wants a baby. I'd want to be having a baby with someone that wants one completely, all the time, with no possibility of them freaking out at 8 months pregnant and up and leave.

I agree, I think talking to a therapist, your gyno, and neurologist before you start trying to conceive. I'd also have a good heart to heart with your partner.

I know my partner well enough to know that even though he has mixed feeling about it that he would stick around.
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cause he truly wants to have a kid, he is very good with kids...just not a lot of girls have given him the opportunity to even think that was was a possibility.

this is something that has been brought up in conversation several times for us. and probably will come up again.