I don't know what to do anymore I just want to die

How about natural progesterone? There is a book called "what your doctor won't tell you about perimenapause" where a doctor john lee talks about natural progesterone and how the bleeding is caused by an imbalance of estrogen and progesterone. I Have used it and I find it does help. You can look up Emetria on "Amazon" and see the life changing reviews. It is a creme that you just rub on. It goes into your blood stream via the skin.

This thread is both horrifying and enlightening to me at the same time. I have always had long painful awful periods. My average period is 8-10 days long and for the first 3days I am bleeding and cramping so bad that I have called out sick from work many many times. This has cost me a lot of jobs. I have had 3 successful pregnancies to term normal in every way or with in the realm of normal I guess. But I have had 4 unsuccessful pregnancies as well...always early/ first trimester loss. After my 2nd was born. I kept testing positive for abnormal cervical cells..HPV. so every 6months for 3yrs they would biopsy/ hole push out a piece of my cervix. OUCH!..Always came back beignin. The infection eventually went back dormant after 3yrs. Then I had a northern miscarriage around that 3yr mark..thought my body was just done with birth. Well just had 3rd born this past yr! 10 yr Surprise!...I never had sex ed (Catholic school) and my mother could make any topic dreadful and embarrassing so never told her when I got my period..late bloomer at almost 14..and I have always felt that the ob/gyns I have seen just assume that I know anything at all! And I've been completely winging it! I am 37. And I've been just faking knowing crap about my body for my entire life. Wow!..I know that was not relevant but boy does it feel freeing to admit that to some one! I have a latex allergy, do get yrly chkups. And tested for stds. Lucked out so far there! I smoke. I have never been able to tolerate ANY kind of birth control everyone they ever put me on pills or shots just made me crazier and bleed constantly..not just spot but bleed like 365 moderate to heavy at times period bleed. I refuse to have anything implanted in me as it just skeeves me out. Yuck.. and every gyns I've seen I've asked about my periods and how awful they are...and all have just said everybody is different..no advice or solution or explanation. and anything else that I have found odd or different they also have just said oh that's normal..with no explanation... I have always felt like my periods and some of my mental health issues,are related but since I cannot tolerate any birth control or anti depressants they just say everything is with in the realm of normal??!!! And offer nothing while meanwhile I have been going through he'll both physically mentally and emotionally for the majority of my life now!! Any advice ladies?

Sorry I just threw this onto the end of another person's thread. I know I should have just started a new thread but I don't want to attach myself to a thread about this for all to click on and read my embarrassing history first thing so I may a coward but I have to get some advice so I'm just riding the coattails of this thread which seems to have ended happily Hope you all don't mind terribly?...

Hi there. I know exactly how you feel. I had the same problem 4 years ago. I bled everywhere and ruined all my jeans and panties. The doctors were noteven going to suggest a Hysterectomy. They wanted to do another procedure. But i'm older now and am done having kids so I told them I want a Hysterectomy. That is the only real way to get rid of fibroids and bleeding. The surgery went fine and I recovered quickly. So if you are afraid, it's not as bad as it sounds. Now I no longer have periods and no more bleeding and everything else that goes with it. They did leave my ovaries so that I wouldn't go into menopause real quick. But now 4 years later and 50 years old I am finally going through menopause. So I just wanted to let you know that the only way to totally get rid of them is a Hysterectomy. They try to tell you other procedures will work, but it's only temporary. I was bleeding so bad all day and night that 3 pads were not even working for me. So I just wanted to tell you that i did it and everything went just fine. Good luck to you.