I'm Going Crazy

My body has been in chaos for 3 months. I had a pregnancy scare in February and have no been able to let go of it. I am still quite convinced that I am pregnant because no other thing would explain the pain I feel. I've been having all of these pregnancy symptoms and I'm immensely stressed out because of it. I have gone to doctor's for pregnant tests twice and they have been negative. I have taken countless home pregnancy tests, all negative as well. I have had 2 "periods" since my initial scare but they have all been abnormal periods, the first lasted around 4 days, light bleeding, the second lasted around 8 days, VERY painful cramps and heavy bleeding. After my period ended, I had severe lower back pain and cramps that continued throughout the rest of my cycle. I have to pee ALL the time. I decided to start birth control after that period and it has given me pretty bad side effects. I'm not sure if its a hernia or something different but I have a hard, oval shaped painful/pulsating lump that runs from my belly button to the edge of my pelvic bone/uterus. I am freaking out because of it. I have also gone from being constipated to having diarrhea and have not really had regular bowel movements for a few months. Could i possibly be constipated? It hurts to lie on my stomach because I feel this pulsating lump and it feel as if theres a bunch of air trapped inside me. I've tried taking laxatives but it only made me feel worse. I don't know what to do about this lump and its scaring me to death, I do NOT want to be pregnant and can not afford a child. I am in misery and don't know how to do. My body is so messed up, I've been to doctor's and they say its just my umbilical aorta but it has never been this swollen or caused me this much distress before.

I really don't know what to say. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. But if I was you I would keep going back to the doctor until they figured this out. I offer you a gentle hug and a soft embrace. Please take care of yourself...

Hi, It sounds like you have done about all you can do to figure out what's wrong, and that nothing is really showing up. After all those negative pregnancy tests I highly doubt that your pregnant. Could anxiety be causing your symptoms? That's what it sounds like to me, anyway.

I think you need more tests before this is determined to be stress related. Trust me, I've been down that road and it should only be called stress once they've determined via ALL tests that nothing physical can be located. Get a CT, MRI AND if that shows nothing they can do other things. Don't continue to suffer without sufficient answers....you deserve to know what's causing your pain and if its stress, try meditation as that does work well for some people.

I really want to stress to you that you need to get to the doctors about this. My doctors had me thinking it was all in my head and treated me like a crazy person. I have been crazy but it's likely hormonal it might appear and things can be done. Don't be like me and assume they are right and you are crazy....they have no proof to make such assertions.

I think it's important to note that anxiety is not 'all in the head'...anxiety (and other mental disorders) are very real medical illnesses, and very physical.

I agree with this but it's not how the doctors seem to feel or reassure me towards.

You could have an ovarian cyst or endemetriosis or something else. Go to the doctor for a pelvic ultrasound (not a pregnancy test). You may have a totally different gynecological condition, or something else entirely.

Yes...my experience with most doctors, too. It's stigma. Infuriating.