bestfriend

i hope this is where this belongs..
just a whiney rant really..

you know that friend you have...your bestfriend...where you can just be yourself around. the one that you can be stupid with, have so much fun with, cry with, talk for hours with, do the things you could never do with anyone else with...i miss that..

i have two people i really consider to be my bestfriends
they mean everything to me
i can totally be myself around them
i moved to another provance over a year ago now so i never get the chance to see them anymore
we don't stay in connect either, they both are the life of the party and don't have the time for me anymore.

one of them came out this way a bit ago and we were able to meet up and i got to spend a couple of days with her and that was seriously so awesome
i ecspecially needed it at this time
i miss it so much more now though

i haven't met anyone like that here yet
i have a problem meeting people and making friends in general...i'm way too anxious, nervous and paranoid to talk to anyone, get to know anyone, give anyone the chance to get to know me.

i have a couple of friends here and they are so amazing, seriously
but it's just not the same...we don't connect like i do with my two bestfriends
i always compare everybody to them and the friendship we have together

i need that
i long for it
i just want that friend that you can curl up in your pjs with, watch a movie, drink wine, talk, giggle, just sit there, cry, laugh...

i'm not making sence
sorry
i'm really lonely tonight

((((( dollparts ))))

I'd curl up and watch a movie with ya, but I'll have tea while you have wine k? I understand about feeling lonely. I'm here A LOT when I'm in that space. Just to feel connected to people online helps. I hope you're feeling a little better.