I am so sorry for my other post

OK I embarrassed my self again. I ran out of a bunch of my meds the other week so like an idiot I quit taking them. I get really bad insomnia and I go a bit wacky. My husband found out I had quit taking my meds and made me go and get my sleeping pills. I have now had a good night sleep and all of my meds. You don't have to call child services or anything. The weeks that I am stupid like this I call it hibernation time we watch a lot of movies and do arts and crafts and the kids play together in the back yard. My top priority is keeping them healthy and happy. They are. I read over my post and my face is red. I really don't need therapy and I don't hate my daughter. I really am not projecting anything onto her. It is true I don't get her she is my total opposite. She is flirt y but I am saying flirt y not in a sexual way because there is nothing sexual about a 5 year old girl or her thinking. I had a friend and she was like that she would flirt with everyone boy girl man or woman. They have a way of making you feel special when they are taking to you giggle when they talk. They both do this hair flip when they are listening to a person that kind of says I am really listening. Both my friend and my daughter make people feel special. I am proud of that but it scares the crap out of me. She is so sweet and special and has that "flirty" quality with everyone she meets I don't want someone that is mean to her prey on her. I know that is not for a few years but she is growing so fast. The whole boob thing again sounded sexual and it wasn't. She wants them because she wants to wear pretty things like my strapless wedding gown. Her friends mom is always wearing classy but very feminine clothes. They type that you need a womens figure to wear. My daughter loves her clothes and can't wait to wear something like them. She has an eye for detail and cut. She comes from a long line of women who design and make their own clothes and she is picking up that talent. She designs clothes for hours and hours at her craft table. She has even made some for her dolls (with the help of her grandma.) With that talent comes an eye for what looks good on who . She knows what she wants to wear and she knows she needs a figure to wear it. She saw Dita Von Tese (she has no idea who she is or what she does) in a PETA commercial and wants to look like that. She got it in her head just before she went to bed the night of the embarrassing post that I need to dress like her friends mom and she wouldn't let it go. I was angry and wacky (not a good combo kind of like drinking and calling your ex boyfriends number) She is stubborn as heck and needs consistency but she is a happy girl. I promise you this she has never seen that side of me before. Even if my life is going to hell my kids are washed, dressed in respectable clothes, fed well balanced diet, They have good manners and I have been told on more than one occasion that I should be proud of them. I empower them with knowledge and my only wish is that they are happy and have enough strength in character to carry them through the rough patches. They know that their mom and dad love them and will back them through thick and thin. I don't wish to be my daughter and I don't wish for her to be me. She was just pushing every boundary that day . She wouldn't lay off my clothes and about an hour after I put her to bed she was still up and complaining about the color of her PJ's ect. I was tired angry I hadn't slept well all week I wasn't on my meds (still working on the levels but at least now I am sleeping) I apologize again I am so embarrassed and I think this will be my last post for a very long while.

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there is no need to be embarrassed. It sounds l ike you are a deeply loving mother who wants and does the absolute best for her children. That is very special and the world needs more ppl with such a caring heart.
Take care.
p.s. about the boobs thing- my daughter (not yet 8) wants a baby in her tummy (becoz she loves babies so much!!) and boobs so she can feed it... I told her it wouldn't be happening- the pregnancy thing- for another 20 years at least lol.