[Vossie42]

Ugh, I'm having a rough night to night. I'm trying not to be self-destructive. I went on two interviews with a particular company. The interviews went pretty well. The problem is I said some bad things about my previous employer. I know that's a huge no-no, but I'm unemployed because my previous employer failed so badly that the business was hastily sold before it could be taken into state receivership. The new company that bought my previous employer laid off many people, including me. I was a top employee at my old company. My former coworkers were deeply shocked that I was let go. I've been reassured that I was not let go due to any wrongdoing on my part. It's simply that there was no room in the department for me, so my position was eliminated. I should have said just that. Unfortunately I said that I was replaced by two people who had no experience or knowledge of how to do the job I did. That makes it look like I was laid off for other reasons than work performance - perhaps personality conflicts. It galls me so much that I was laid off and replaced by two people who had no idea how to do my job. They were my former coworkers. I was replaced by my former coworkers. One of them even came from another department. This is so unfair. No one will tell me why I was really let go. Regardless, none of this belongs in a job interview. I knew that and couldn't shut up.

Even worse is that the telephone number of one of my professional references is disconnected. Either the person deliberately gave me the wrong number or I wrote the number down wrong. Now I can't reach her. This will look very bad to the prospective employer. I need to have two references and now have only one. Staffing agencies and prospective employers require two.

Sigh, I'm so overwhelmed. I have so much to do but feel like I don't have enough time in the day. Yeesh, I'm unemployed! Yet, I can't get anything done.