[RS123]

How am I supposed to get a job when I don't even know what job I want?
For now, I'm basically looking for something in retail or a bar. Just something to give me money, but deep down, it's not what I want to do. And I don't know what I want to do.
For some reason everything becomes so difficult for me.
I am actually scared to get a job, I know I'll suck at it, and I know no one there will like me.
I'm a really shy an quiet person to start with, how is that going to find me a job or even sort my head out!?
There's nothing that interests me or motivates me.
It's horrible.
Plus there aren't any jobs these days anyway.
The woman at the job centre is really starting to hate me.
"You need to look for more jobs" THERE AREN'T ANY STUPID JOBS WOMAN!!
I look, and look and look. Always the same jobs, never anything new.
I when I do find something, what do I get back? NOTHING!!
I really am ready to give up on everything.

[Nicks_Nose]

We all understand that frustration. We have been there at one time or even many times. The people at the career centres deal with the same frustrated, sand, and scared people like yourself, everyday. They are also aware all too well of the economic conditions of the day, but they are simply trying to help keep you active. They know very well what little is out there, but they also know that when a person chooses to simply stop searching, they tend ot fall into a funk and it can lead to worse problems. They are simply trying to help you stay active in the search game. Those who remain diligent and keep active, if for no other reason than to remain active, do have more hope than those who simply give up.

If you have no idea what you do well in, then that should broaden your job search. Open your avenue of jobs to apply for and see what you find out about yourself. Be willing to work at anything though. If in your mind you are already putting up barriers, saying to yourself, I don't want to do this, or I don't want to do that, then you are already limiting your own options. This contributes to your length of time you go without hearing from people.

In this economy, you cannot waste time trying to find one that interests you...you have to be willing to take what's available.

[nonightowl]

It is easy for someone WITH a #$%&*@ job to tell people without one "You need to look for more jobs."

IMO, there is a lot of denial out there in our culture about jobs. There aren't ENOUGH of them to go around for the people that are out of work.

Also, want to suggest taking with a "grain of salt" the amount of "help" these people are claiming to give out. Some of it is useful no doubt, but they are also feeding off (literally) someone else's misfortune. Granted, an entire industry is built around "helping" people out of work, when so much of it is just plain common sense. "Don't have bad breath at the interview." Really! An insult to my intelligence. They seem to imply that by following steps 1-10, you'll find a job...Not so! Telling you what to wear, what to say, what to do. Skills and such are still important, but it doesn't mean what it used to when companies treat people like things, and not human beings. In other words, you can have everything just right and get hired, only to get let go days later cause they are "downsizing" or they "eliminated the position."

Even with the grief you go through to get the job, no guarantee of how long you'll have it. It seems out of our control more, when back in the day just being a good worker meant you had a job.

Personally, I think it should be illegal to fire people unless they've engaged in something criminal. It would be hard to enforce though. Still, they are literally putting some people out on the street when they do this. "Ripple effect", let we are told to "suck it up and soldier on."

Losing one's job or searching for one is like the psychological equivalent of getting hit by a car. It has such blows. (If things don't go smoothly cause one doesn't have a perfect history or perfect references.)

I'm mostly venting here, but I do know how hard it is to "keep looking" when you get no results. Esp. since we are constantly told in our culture to "pull yourself up by your bootstraps." What if you don't even own a pair of boots, if you use that analogy?

Volunteering some place close to home might help. I mean, it will keep you productive and feeling useful. It will give a routine of some kind that a job usually does, and you will be around some people. It can be uplifting to just have some human contact, esp. with NICE people.

[RS123]

Originally Posted by nonightowl

It is easy for someone WITH a #$%&*@ job to tell people without one "You need to look for more jobs."

IMO, there is a lot of denial out there in our culture about jobs. There aren't ENOUGH of them to go around for the people that are out of work.

Also, want to suggest taking with a "grain of salt" the amount of "help" these people are claiming to give out. Some of it is useful no doubt, but they are also feeding off (literally) someone else's misfortune. Granted, an entire industry is built around "helping" people out of work, when so much of it is just plain common sense. "Don't have bad breath at the interview." Really! An insult to my intelligence. They seem to imply that by following steps 1-10, you'll find a job...Not so! Telling you what to wear, what to say, what to do. Skills and such are still important, but it doesn't mean what it used to when companies treat people like things, and not human beings. In other words, you can have everything just right and get hired, only to get let go days later cause they are "downsizing" or they "eliminated the position."

Even with the grief you go through to get the job, no guarantee of how long you'll have it. It seems out of our control more, when back in the day just being a good worker meant you had a job.

Personally, I think it should be illegal to fire people unless they've engaged in something criminal. It would be hard to enforce though. Still, they are literally putting some people out on the street when they do this. "Ripple effect", let we are told to "suck it up and soldier on."

Losing one's job or searching for one is like the psychological equivalent of getting hit by a car. It has such blows. (If things don't go smoothly cause one doesn't have a perfect history or perfect references.)

I'm mostly venting here, but I do know how hard it is to "keep looking" when you get no results. Esp. since we are constantly told in our culture to "pull yourself up by your bootstraps." What if you don't even own a pair of boots, if you use that analogy?

Volunteering some place close to home might help. I mean, it will keep you productive and feeling useful. It will give a routine of some kind that a job usually does, and you will be around some people. It can be uplifting to just have some human contact, esp. with NICE people.

I totally agree with you 100 percent. I've so far been on two work programmes which is supposed to 'help you' find work. They don't, they just tell us what we already know - Interviews, clothes, CV's, blah blah blah.
And I volunteered once, I was working in a charity shop. Was pretty boring to be honest. Only stayed for 3 months.

[ladytiger]

i agree this country is in so much denial about jobs here and there isn't much support out there to go around either. volunteering does not pay the bills that is the stupidest advice i am still getting how am i suppose to get there if it is far away? AZ has is not a close knit state u need a car to get around.

i got my degree AAS Network Administrator no certifications and no jobs for me for entry level in IT. i have looked and looked got an offer from my instructor but they wanted x amount of years in the field and i have over 17 yrs not in the field of IT which does not count unless i was paid for it.

the job advice is not helping me one bit at my age 26 and my lack of experience. i see more retail and fast food ****** jobs than anything else. the better jobs require more experience and skills with certification. nothing here but crap jobs that doesnt pay enough for your bills. they say ppl should be grateful for a job but how can you be happy for 8/hr and u can barely survive? nobody can not even answer that question.

if you have a degree and ur applying for a crap job, they wont even hire you degree or no degree. my sister just turned 44 last year has a degree yet can not get a job and was a homemaker for 8 yrs. my bf and i been to a lot of workshops, ive been to 2 different workforce connections (gov agencies), and the 2nd one we attended is much more better than the 1st one we went to last year.

there was stuff in there that was never taught in high school nor college. both schools did absolutely nothing for job help. the 1st workforce said they have an 89% success rate of getting people jobs and the 2nd WC does not get you jobs they give you tools to get ur own jobs.

im 26 yrs old and i am still catching up to what was never taught in schools. hell, my own parents didnt teach me this when i was a teen. everything is so bland and redundant that nothing is not helping me or my bf get a job anywhere even if the position is crummy.

"I'm mostly venting here, but I do know how hard it is to "keep looking" when you get no results. Esp. since we are constantly told in our culture to "pull yourself up by your bootstraps." What if you don't even own a pair of boots, if you use that analogy?"

i agree the keep looking **** is not helpful especially when you still not getting anywhere with these companies. i have started back looking for a job ever since i graduated from college 2 yrs ago and only had one interview a month and a half ago! holiday jobs are gonna come up isn't this the time to hire now in sept early oct?

[nonightowl]

I beg to differ, LadyTiger, volunteering is not "stupid" if there's something close to home where you could walk or ride a bike. It gets you out, at least. You don't have to take my advice, or even like it. No one does. But thank you for saying how stupid it sounds. I appreciate and really needed that.

RS123, I forgot to say that those people at these centers that "help" you do it everyday that I think they get desensitized to people out of work. THEY are working, but look at this way: If we had LOW (& short-lived unemployment), these people wouldn't even have a job. I don't know what they would be doing, but it wouldn't be telling people to "be on time" for their interview. Or not to wear jeans with holes in them.

[Nicks_Nose]

The people at these resource centres are very well aware of the issues in the work force because of the numbers of people who pass through their doors everyday. Even though they are fully aware of the agonies of their clients and they have to deal with the anger, frustration, depression and understandable loss of self esteem faced by their clients, these people are expected to be positive and put on a happy face and try to keep you involved in job search and keep your spirits up. A person who gives up looking misses maybe one job application out of a 100 or so that might have been the job for them. It is hard and stressful work for these people to keep smiling for us as they know full well what each and every person is facing because they hear it daily from each and every person they are expected to help. If these people could guarantee a job for every applicant who walks through their doors they would be happier also. SO please lighten up on these people. They are working hard on limited resources and limited jobs in the market to try to help tons of unemployed people stay positive in this very challenging time.

[ladytiger]

Originally Posted by nonightowl

I beg to differ, LadyTiger, volunteering is not "stupid" if there's something close to home where you could walk or ride a bike. It gets you out, at least. You don't have to take my advice, or even like it. No one does. But thank you for saying how stupid it sounds. I appreciate and really needed that.

RS123, I forgot to say that those people at these centers that "help" you do it everyday that I think they get desensitized to people out of work. THEY are working, but look at this way: If we had LOW (& short-lived unemployment), these people wouldn't even have a job. I don't know what they would be doing, but it wouldn't be telling people to "be on time" for their interview. Or not to wear jeans with holes in them.

i said its stupid because there is benefit and volunteering is not landing anyone a job i dont care what people claim. that used to work long time ago that is now not working anymore. i talked to people who have volunteered with multiple nonprofits, contracts ended, and they were back to step 1 for finding a job.

i read a comment on hbr on long term unemployment and the guy said "There is no difference between the unemployed and employed. The fact that 40% of employers think this is relevant gives you some indication of what they really discriminate against. Secondly, the fact that they prefer you to volunteer for free says a lot- how many companies would give away free products and services? How long do you think they could hold out for? So never do free work. It adds nothing, unless you are peddling insurance or network marketing."

i do agree these companies want you to work for free what does it say about them? you volunteer to work for free guess what? its another cheaper method to not pay you anything since they know you are looking for work. when your contract is over, its thank you for helping out and giving back to the community. i wish you the best of luck in your job search! if a nonprofit said that to me, i would try not to let all the swear words come out! so, the whole idea of "go volunteer and you will land a job," is not applicable in this economy because it doesn't gaurantee you anything and creates a false promise.

i do agree that volunteering gets you out of the house, gives you gratitude, and gives back to the community. my therapist suggest i do volunteering but she knows i am looking for a job. she told me it will give me a sense of gratitude and maybe i might find my passion. i told many professionals ever since the huge hit in 08 is volunteering paying your bills? feeding your kids (assuming you have kids)?

i think (this is my experience/feelings) passion can come later because my financial situation is so severely it isn't even funny. i am sure most people can speak on that. i will do "volunteering" if someone presented me a contract and paid income. i had an interview 2 yrs ago where an employer asked me why don't i volunteer to gain experience and get a job?

i looked at him for 5 seconds then i said how does it pay one's bills? this economy is in a dire state where there is no money or jobs to go around and i would prefer to be paid to do work. if i was an adult in the early 2000s, i would volunteer no big deal (no, i didn't say that part to him). i said to him this is a hugely fierce competition right now for everybody of all ages/skills/experience levels/education.

after that, the interview didn't go long. was that correct of me to say in an interview? no, but i was gonna be straight forward and honest rather than just go 'ok, sure. maybe i will go volunteer.' i told him i came to this interview for a reason to hopefully be employed by this company. definitely end of interview!

i always tell professionals if you met someone who is going through foreclosure, lost their job, using UI, savings just about gone, etc would you recommend they do a volunteering job in order to get a job? no, you would not! that person is not interested in that because they want to be able to keep a roof over their head and ask themselves how am i gonna save my house?

does volunteering fit into situation for a job or any kind of income? no, it does not yet most professionals have told me it could help...oh really? they are still unemployed if their advice is so great how come they or other individuals aren't employed?

there's a guy on linkedin who lives in the same state as i do who volunteers are the main humane society. he has been there for 2 yrs when i was talking to him. he is still waiting for them to give him a full time job, he is like almost 40, and still waiting! i told him you gave them 2 yrs and they couldn't give you a part or full time job? not me, i would end it there and move on.

i don't know how he is taking care of himself but that's what he told everybody in the open forum. everybody praising him for volunteering i always say this what about taking care of yourself financially? did we forget how we are suppose to live? nobody never asks the questions for job seekers if they can do xyz if their situation allows it.

my situation can not allow me to volunteer at all. it takes money like anything else, put the gas in the car, or buy a bus fare. the state i live in there is nothing close knit to go from A to B that is why you need a car. i live in a city not too far away from the capital it still takes me a while to get there even with my car and further on the bus!

i dont believe in 90% of the job advice out there because they don't base it on people's situation and finances as i said many times. it is nothing but boring, broad, general career advice. i get a lot of job articles in my emails, some i agree with, and most i do not. as many times as i have been to workforce connections which are gov agencies, they don't even touch on that. all i hear from people is borrow money from your parents or friends or whoever. borrow? then the money (debt) keeps getting piled up and up and up to god who knows when you will get a job!

so, nobody has time to wait nor wants to work for free! i mean, it's not hard it is just research and deep critical thinking i guess america has stooped low and became dumber everyday by the minute! i had a career counselor at the WC and suggested jobs for me to do and hated his suggestions. another trainer told me the same bs of volunteering i said my livelihood and dignity means more to me than working for free. he said by looking at my resume, he wouldn't hire me because i didn't have much experience.

i didn't get offended and i agreed with him. i am NOT the only one who lacks experience. i mean my god, i got my damn degree 2 yrs ago in IT with no certifications too costly for me, IT has been outsourced, and the ones here in my state wants over 5 yrs of experience!'

i want to update/add skills i am trying to do that but my mind goes off into a deep depressive state because i have no means of income to do anything. the advice i get is "oh your so young, you have all your years to work. wait until obama/government fix the economy and we will all have jobs." what kind of advice is that?

as i said many times, it will get worse before it will get better. it is still getting worse everyday. i made a much better resume than i did in the past and happy with it. well, holiday jobs are coming, so i hope this will get me more opportunities to get some kind of employment. volunteering does not pave the way to a job anymore, did you know more companies are going with "referrals?" the who you know game? they are hiring you based on a referral not so much finding your application online. that's all that is out there old, outdated info, and limited resources how is that helping anyone get a job? i have gotten old outdated info until i had to go to many different workshops.

[Bella01]

I have been out of work for five years which I was doing elder care for my mother. Now employers won't touch me because I've been out of work. I've been looking now for two years.

The managers that I have talked to say they would rather hire someone who is employed than a unemployed person. Why? They don't understand why someone would be unemployed for any length of time. It's bulls@@@ but it's a fact.

I don't agree with this but it is a fact that needs to be addressed.

I have been doing voluteer work for two years now and still doesn't help land a job. It does at least get me out of the house and makes me feel useful.

[nonightowl]

RS123, I forgot to say that there is such a thing as "PAID volunteer positions". May not be as numerous, but they are there. Sometimes it can lead to getting hired. I know it works for some people; I knew someone like that. They may act as references too, if needed.

I feel your pain, okay?

[ladytiger]

ahh you people know nothing about what is really going on. my attitude is just fine at least i know what's going on out there in this crazy *** job market. i do not have my head in the sands. it may lead you to a job? again, is this 2003? like i said spoken to many different people who volunteered multiple times and didn't land a job in this economy. some of you in here are volunteering, right? did any of you land a job yet (the ones who are unemployed)?

didn't think so. i chose not to volunteer simply because it is free work which is not paying my bills or getting me where i need to go simple as that. why is that so hard to understand? you people choose to believe the lies out there on volunteering will save you and land you a job. there were some other people i have spoken too who said like i said before slave work with no pay what does that say about the company?

again, present to me a contract with pay and i will do the work - money talks in america! i'll volunteer to keep myself busy and happy but i will NOT volunteer as a way to get a job IF i choose to volunteer. i can barely find paid volunteer positions especially where i live then again nobody can not direct me to where i can find paid volunteer positions.

like i have challenged professionals, if everything you say is correct and helpful, pass on those resources to others who need it. if everything is correct and wonderful, you should have jobs! oh they hated when i said that because they never have a comeback to what i tell them. it's not hard it is research didn't many of you had to some kind of research in your jobs? why is it hard now? is obama really gonna save you or the republicans? are you part of the tea party movement? did they promise you anything?

i do my research and mostly the stuff i hear on tv i do not agree with which i am entitled to just like everybody else. the job advice out there is so outdated and wrong that it doesn't fit for a lot of people's situation. i noticed nobody said anything on the example i gave to someone who is losing their house, job, may be homeless and would u tell that person to go volunteer? then u know i am right that wouldn't fit someone who is losing everything and may be homeless.

when your right, the crowd gets silent. i have looked at my situation multiple times oh but my poor attitude is limiting me from volunteering and getting a job gimme a break! many of you are unemployed, then some of you might have poor attitudes. reviewing my situation, i said to myself it is best if i do not volunteer until there is monies coming in. i did volunteer twice back in college when the economy was still alright only for one day through a club i was in and had so much fun. i didn't go there hoping to get a job!

i must not have a poor attitude since i do way more research than the average joe out there i dont believe what i hear on the tv i go find it if i can and challenge it many people don't seem to know how to either do that or forgot how to do it. i guess it is true america has really been dumbed down.

as i said before give job advice the correct info that will fit people's situations. i never told anyone to volunteer especially if they having such severe financially difficulty that they can not put gas in the car or a bus pass. things cost money people i guess we forgot that as well we must be losing our sanity in this country i am not at all surprised anymore. i just tell people never volunteer to get a job ever it used to work many years ago but not now in this economy.

i just tell them go volunteer to clear your head and give back take things off your mind never use it as means to get a job! dont go there thinking i may get a job after the contract is over no think again. if what i say equates to a bad attitude, then oh well, i guess looking at my situation and seeing what will work for me is also horrible thinking huh? i am working on ME not everybody else!

[Jan1212]

Yo'ure better off looking for a job on your own, meaning wear kakhis, a blouse, walk into HR, ask for the manager himself, smile, ask if they're hiring, ask for an application anyway, hand it in, next store. I remember taking me months to find a min wage job, 4 months for find my current job with no family/friends help. You'll find something, the process of looking for a job is the toughest and most stressful. Looking, wasting gas money, have people tell you things that doesn't help... it does wear you out. I just wished I didn't stress out to the point of putting your body under stress, high blood pressure, because you will find something I mean, what can you do til then?

those people at the employment centers don't help. I tried going there a few times, there's only frustrated people that get more frustrated, with one guy making a fit for waiting over 4 hours for his appointment with someone. I got told, "just go apply at the place across the street".

[cocoabeans]

Unemployment isn't that high! Personally, I've been promoted more than once and had multiple job offers in the last few years.

As for volunteering as a tool to help you find work, experience and references are what helps you. Also, volunteer work shows positive qualities about you as a person making you more likely to get hired somewhere.

I honestly believe that if you can't find any work at all in this economy, there is something wrong with either your resume and cover letter or attitude and interview skills.

I do know some people who are qualified but, can't find work! Why? Their attitudes! Unwillingness to accept lower paid or skilled positions etc.

Why not try some warehousing type jobs instead of looking for bar and retail jobs? Are you signed up with a staffing company? Is that what you mean by career centre? I'm a quiet, but just as valuable employee, and retail jobs have totally drained me. Many employers who hire people like me, who are smart but haven't obtained a degree, often take advantage of their staff. They dump loads of work onto you, fire your co-workers to cut expenses so now you have 2x or 3x the work, take away your benefits, cut your hours, and expect you to kiss their feet because they are still kind enough to pay you minimum wage for your work. And there really is some sort of wealthy vs. poor class division happening. I started at a higher pay rate at a retail store about 8 years ago. Now, retail places are starting people off at about $2.50 less than they used to. Something tells me that it's not an uncontrolled circumstance that has fallen upon our people. I truly believe it was planned, and that these wealthy a-holes have succeded in making themselves even wealthier. It is GREED, that's all. I think we all have been duped.

Oh, in addition, I think we are treading in shark infested waters when we start accepting non-paying positions. Didn't we abolish slavery more than 200 years ago? Why are we moving in that direction again? It's WONDERFUL to volunteer your TIME for a good cause, but my goodness, we are the ones who are going to BECOME the good cause if we do not have a source of income. YOU have to come first in this world because if their is one thing I've learned so far in my life, NO ONE is going to support me. Not even a rich dude would support me for free. I'm pretty darn sure I'd have to give him something. That's the way the universe works......giving and receiving. Volunteering is going to become another word to describe slavery, just great. I thought we had made some progress here. Now, we're gonna let the rich people bully us into working for free? Also, volunteering is supposed to be performed in the spirit of charity. If you are just doing it in order to get a job, you are not doing it with the right intentions. That should be something you commit to with a GIVING heart, not just to get good references.

[cocoabeans]

Originally Posted by Aquarius8

Oh, in addition, I think we are treading in shark infested waters when we start accepting non-paying positions. Didn't we abolish slavery more than 200 years ago? Why are we moving in that direction again? It's WONDERFUL to volunteer your TIME for a good cause, but my goodness, we are the ones who are going to BECOME the good cause if we do not have a source of income. YOU have to come first in this world because if their is one thing I've learned so far in my life, NO ONE is going to support me. Not even a rich dude would support me for free. I'm pretty darn sure I'd have to give him something. That's the way the universe works......giving and receiving. Volunteering is going to become another word to describe slavery, just great. I thought we had made some progress here. Now, we're gonna let the rich people bully us into working for free? Also, volunteering is supposed to be performed in the spirit of charity. If you are just doing it in order to get a job, you are not doing it with the right intentions. That should be something you commit to with a GIVING heart, not just to get good references.

Ever consider doing stand up?

[kyouma]

i relate to this completely! except that i havent really looked for a new job properly, i'm stuck in my parent's office for let me see... man almost 7 years now i guess and they wont let me out
i dont even know how to look for a job. i dont know how to talk about myself, i dont know how to make those papers i guess its called curriculum in english? i have tried writing one but i really can't tell about myself. i just wish i'd be given opportunities and give it a try, because if they teach me, i'll do it, and of course i know what i dislike at all as for example offices with papers, i cant do that haha and its exactly what i'm stuck in doing.
i'm watching the thread!

edit, just thought of something, how cool it'd be to work at those job centers. how do you get to work there? hah

Let's trade kyouma. I'd actually like to work with my family. Then, I could boss them around, haha. They're the only people I'm not too scared to tell them what to do. On friday I went to a job center about an hour before they closed. The ad said to apply up until 5pm. I even called to see if it was ok to just walk in. I applied online, but when I called, they said they only take applications in their office. So, I went in. Those 2 people in there were soooo rude. And the other candidates were rude too, not to mention sloppily dressed. One applicant thought I worked there because I at least tried to throw on something somewhat professional. She was asking me something I didn't understand..... And her toddler was trying to play with my application, and she didn't stop her. Finally, I understood what was happening, and I attempted my shoddy spanish and said to her as she was walking away rolling her eyes at me, "No trabaja." Oh my god, and then the dude recruiter kept incessantly talking about how he had to leave to pick up his daughter. The woman recruiter kept chiming in as well, "Oh yeah, so and so, you gotta leave to pick up your daughter, and you'll just have to come back with her, and let her run around......" Then, after he was done helping the 2 people who had come in AFTER me, but needed a spanish speaker (he was in demand for his native tongue,) he sat there about 15 minutes more chatting with the candidate that the other recruiter was helping, about shoes and how many kids everyone wants. Then, he comes over to me, and says that the girl will help me because he's gotta go meet with another client, and he's sorry. All the while, they were both whining about how they didn't want to stay late on a friday. I was sitting there for 40 mintues daring myself to shred my application, and announce very loudly that I gotta go pick up my 10 kids!!! I finally spoke up, and said I'd be back monday, I don't want to keep them here. I guess I wasn't worth their time. I must've been in the wrong place.
Oh, thanks cocoabeans for the compliment. I was feeling sort of blue today.

[kyouma]

hahahaha man i needed this laugh - sorry about that tho
honestly, don't you ever look at some things and think that if they'd hire you, they could even be rich? i see a lot of places that could use some help - in fact they could use of anything because their employees just do nothing, i wonder even how their coffee is - and i really wish i could apply to give them a hand in something, even the environment would be nicer as i'm used to keep all my complainings in my own head

i still would like to know if i could work at a job center hmm

[viryan23]

Hi there guys!

I so totally relate to this post. It is not really surprising that sometimes, in the middle of our career, we ask ourselves if we truly are happy with our jobs.
I myself am a work butterfly where I CAN'T stay on a job for too long, unless I really really like it.

People have told me it was stupid of me to tear down my own professional relationships apart, like, there are people who find it hard to look for work but here I am wasting the opportunities given to me.

I don't really know, It's really just "me" not to care to much, as long as I am happy with what I do.