[kala83]

so basically I work in a factory and I decided to try to work this weekend both days I went home early.

one was cause I was suppoused to have cut proof gloves on and due to the fact we had so many people there and thing were not being managed well.

I could not get a pair, so I ended up cutting myself and I lost some blood from my finger. Not sure what the deal was with all that....but for whatever reason it took forever for my finger's cut to clot for me.

the day earlier me and the girl training basically got complained about by coperate due to we were in a new section to us both...and the girl that could have trained us that day that knows what she is doing over there better then us. Was not in that day, there is a guy there...that knows what he is doing fairly well also but they kept sending him to help other departments and so we ended up not know what we were doing and putting out parts that were not inspected that well...and were not that good quality.

This is the first real job I have had in a really long time and I really want to keep the job. But between the pressure of me trying to push myself to learn the new material and do it to the point where I am not hurting myself is fairly scary.

also the way this factory in particular is run, frankly just does not seem well and I keep seeing all this stuff all the time about factories that go belly up. I would not mind getting on at another factory but most usually want you to have upwards of 2 years experience at another first. lol this is only day 5 starting tomorrow.

I am thrilled yet horrified of the fact I have this job. I want and need a steady income I could be able to go back to school if I kept this job for long enough so....it honestly scares me a lot that I might not be able to cut it. Or that things out of my control could casue me not to have this job anymore.

granted having an anxiety disorder does not make the situation and me worrying any better.

[Perna]

I hate starting new jobs; I don't get comfortable in them for at least 6 months when I'll suddenly realize I have a clue what I'm doing and am not nearly so anxious, etc.

Sounds like you are doing okay, other than disobeying the safety rule with needing the gloves, bet you won't do that again? :-) I'd talk to your doctor about the clotting thing, sounds like it could be a med you are on or something else and might be significant.

How long you been there? I'd give myself at least a month before I let myself worry I might not be doing well/wouldn't keep the job? How long is your training/trial period? My jobs always gave me 3 months and I was okay by then as far as being able to do the job. If they just hired you and another/other people, then they must be doing okay or they wouldn't be able to hire? They know they have to pay "extra" because you are just a trainee so not worth as much yet as a skilled line worker. That they did not just hire you would make me feel even more secure; I have another person in the same shoes I am learning and they are doing well enough to hire multiple people at a time?

[kala83]

it wasn't really that I disobeyed the rule it was that we did not have enough gloves to go around for the people there.

I guess my fear was right though cause I got cut from the assembly line today.

I am still on with the temp agency so hopefully I can find something from that...but still I am really freaking out and depressed as **** right now.