[MisterSaunders]

Hi all,

I graduated last year from University, and I entered into a career as a Sales professional in a growing company. I had no real right to get that job, as I excelled in my interview and frankly was recklessly overconfident. I'm earning good money, I have a company car, expense account and a great commission scheme; all amazing for someone just out of university - don't worry, I'm not boasting... You'll see.

My Sales Director went on holiday for a month. I willingly took on loads of responsibility and publicly set high targets.

I am failing miserably due to a massive relapse in my mental health. Depression, anxiety, confidence, concentration, self worth, GONE.

I know this will pass, but it's compounded by this pressure. What's worse is, I can't motivate myself. I just want to lie face down on a big soft mattress while someone strokes my head and someone else plays lovely music until forever.

Stupid brain.

[Travelinglady]

MisterSaunders, I suspect the high goals you set for yourself are a big part of the problem. How about trying not to worry about goals and just go about your work, one day at a time?

[hvert]

There's no shame in admitting you were wrong and correcting mid-course, if that's an option. It's the first time you had this responsibility and you are learning new things as you go. It was good of you to step up and take on the extra challenge and people will remember that. I hope you get through the rest of the month okay!

[MisterSaunders]

You're right, but I can't justify why I am not going to hit my target! It's not because I can't, it's because I'm having a torrid time and super intense withdrawals.

[hvert]

That's as valid a reason as any -- I clicked on your link and saw that you are quitting smoking. That will affect your performance and any ex-smoker will understand and empathize. I know you know already, but it does get better with time -- your concentration and focus will come back, maybe in a slightly different way.

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this now. It sounds very stressful and that's not the way to start the summer! I hope you get some time lying on that mattress or on a lounge chair in the sun.