Am I a freak?

I've had a temp job for about 6 weeks now. In that short time I grew very fond of one of the other temps. We didn't really talk one on one much other than a sentence or two here and there, but I always felt warm and fuzzy inside when he did speak to me. Call it a schoolgirl crush. Seeing him was the main reason I looked forward to going to work. I was bummed out when this past Monday he announced he got a new job, and July 3 would be his last day with us.

Yesterday about 2 hours before our shift was over he said he was going to head out (we were all given the option to leave early if we wanted to). I assumed he meant for the weekend. I was stunned though when he said "Bye everyone. It's my last day." I guess it was the fact that he didn't say anything until he was actually heading out the door, and he had let us all think he'd be with us one more week, made it even sadder. I fought tears for the rest of the shift and for once I was grateful I had a sunburn because it masked the flushed face I always get when I'm teary. I fantasized that I would go out to my car and find a note from him on my windshield with his phone number and/or email address. Of course that didn't happen. I cried all the way home, and more. My eyes were still puffy when I woke up this morning.

Am I a freak for getting so emotional over someone I knew so briefly and didn't even talk to that much? I suppose if he was on Facebook I could send him a friend request, but he mentioned before he doesn't do social media. Besides, his goodbye seemed so quick and impersonal I got the impression he had no desire to keep in touch with anyone. The group of temps said we'll miss him and he just said thanks but didn't say he'd miss us too. We said not to be a stranger and he should drop in and say hi some time since he'll be right down the street and gets an hour for lunch. The way he said "yeah" kind of sounded like a brush off.

Sorry for rambling.

You're not a freak. It's really easy to project fantasies onto someone we hardly know and are attracted to. We've all done that - multiple times! So when he left, that was the end of your warm and fuzzy dream. And it hurts. Perfectly normal. I hope you feel better soon.

Perfectly normal. And, he may not want to keep in touch with old work buddies, or he may not like "goodbyes", especially prolonged ones. Sometimes, we meet someone that touches us for reasons we cannot identify. It is OK.

No, you are not a freak ...

Be extra patient, gentle & kind with yourself about this.

Time Heals ...