[LiteraryLark]

None of my jobs have been very succesful. My first real job was a tutoring program right after my diagnosis, and I was still so doped up that I could hardly function, and I got written up twice for disputes with coworkers. Then I got a job at Walmart. I absolutely loved my coworkers, and still visit them every time I shop there, but the customers were so rude and the work was so stressful that I developed a stress-induced bulimc disorder and I would throw up at work just so I could go home. Then I worked at another retail store, and I would also miss work from stress. Now I work at McDonalds. Sometimes, it's so easy I feel like an idiot for working there, and then sometimes, it's so hard that I feel like an idiot for working there. I already missed two days work after only working for a month, and I got written up for not calling out early enough.

Today, my manager called me on my day off to see if I could come in and I did, mostly because I had nothing better to do and could use the extra cash, but when I checked my schedule I saw that I only worked three days this week, and when I asked, she told me that this week was the grand opening of breakfast served all day and all of her supervisors and higher up bosses and secret shoppers would be here all week and she didn't want to put too much stress on me knowing I have such bad anxiety. I thanked her, and then I felt guilty.

Any tips on how to get over this anxiety? I mostly feel like a failure with all my jobs and not good enough. And then sometimes, I don't feel challenged enough or I feel disrespected by the customers like I'm treated like a servent to make all these crazy demands.

[gayleggg]

Overcoming anxiety can really be hard. I've been having a lot of trouble with it myself. I've recently started to to declare every morning that my anxiety will diminish. As the day goes on.I do it out loud and have found that on most days it really works. I don't know why it works but I don't argue with it, I just say "thank you" when it does.

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