[LaDauphine]

I work part-time: Monday-Friday 10 AM - 3 PM and I couldn't ask for a better schedule.

The thing is, lately I can't seem to utilize my time.

If I'm being honest, I've been lazy and useless for the past 3 months and I need help.
I have a ridiculously short commute (15 minutes maximum) and I used to wake up at 7 AM and leave at 9:30 AM so I was able to get a variety of things done before my shift.
I'd either clean, prep dinner, or go for a run, do my nails, etc.

Now, I can't seem to drag myself out of bed any earlier than 9 AM though!

Someone, please slap some sense in to me.
I'm so fortunate to have a husband who supports this schedule as well as my (usual) passion for cooking, cleaning and keeping fit and polished, but lately, I've just been such a blob.

There are so many people out there who work 9-5, take care of children, have to satisfy themselves with frozen dinners and have no time to relax yet here I am sleeping!

I'm wasting my life sleeping.

How can I get more motivated?

Maybe I just need to stop taking my schedule and lifestyle for granted?

What's your morning/weekly work regime like? How often do you get to relax? Cook a good meal?

[Nimitri]

Maybe you are having some problems that your body is trying to cure? Is there a situation that you dislike? Something that you dread?

It happened to me to and that was for a sense of impotence and fear of the future, guilt of my errors and the depression that hit me like a wall of bricks.

don't look for being slapped or suffer something to get productive. It doesn't work. It never works. I tried it and the only thing I won was to suffer while doing nothing.

There is something that has taken your passion day after day. Try to find it and forgive yourself for letting affect you without degrading yourself while doing it. What you are passing is what you must pass because your body is giving everything and this is the result. That doesn't make you weak, but that whatever it is it really an obstacle.

I know that it sounds like you are wasting even more time (I felt it too) but have your tried to do mindfulness. A excercise for being in the here and now that allowed me to use my time more and more efficiently, like taking a couple of hours to clean your room or ordering your computer so you save dozens upon dozens more in not looking for missing objects.

Give it a try and I hope it helps.

For my time, I do temp work from 9 to 2 and before that I could walk in the morning and do much more, but right now I just woke up and take something for breakfast and my free time I dread because I feel that I don't use it wisely (see movies, series, write) instead of just surfing but my therapist had been guiding me to see that I do what it calms me and support me and that it doesn't need to be a checklist.

Finally, as a person who everyday compare's himself to all the people in the world and how blessed I am and that I'm garbage because I don't do more with my life or that I suffer for living like a king, I can tell you this:

Those people who work and suffer to mantain their life, they are not happier with you hurting yourself. They don't do it because they can, but because they must and they so often fail and you could do it too if you didn't have a chance. But living their life would not make you happy or more effective and to compare to them is like comparing to a person who has broken his arm to another who has lost it.

Both of you are suffering and suffering should never be a competition.

What you are passing is as tragic as what they pass and you are worthy of feeling as you feel because it's your life, your circumstances and what life gave you to deal. You are not worse or better whatever happens and even with all this errors, you are doing so much everyday even when you feel so terrible and that's something to be proud.

[gayleggg]

Have you had any med changes recently? How is your depression level? These are things to consider. Maybe if you went to bed earlier it would help. I keep my sleep schedule very regimented. In bed by 9 and up by 7-7:30. But when I'm depressed I need more sleep and sometimes take a nap during the day. I work 8:30 to noon.

[LaDauphine]

@Nimitri
I know you're trying to help, but your approach just seems so... lazy to me. I don't want to cut myself slack for not being more productive. I don't want to ever allow myself to be OK with being lazy. Before you know it, I'll turn into one of those people who plays Candy Crush all day!

My house isn't a sty or anything, it's actually very clean. I also play competitive sports so I'm not always at home, but I just feel like I should be doing so much more and I can't seem to do it!

[LaDauphine]

@gayleggg
I don't take meds! I can't have any more excuses to need sleep than I already have.