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I am trying so hard not to just walk out of my job.

The favoritism that my boss shows my colleague, the complete lack of transparency, the messing with revenue that I have brought in and attributing it to other people, messing with my budget without telling me - like changing my revenue goals without telling me and then holding me accountable for things that are never presented to me...

Treating me like crap....I applied for the open position that was the head of my department. I didn't feel totally qualified but at the same time, I had a lot of experience and qualifications and wanted to talk about a promotion. I didn't even get an interview. Then when I mentioned it to my boss, he had our headhunter do a vetting interview by phone. I didn't make it any further than that, and no one, NO ONE bothered to even tell me that. I've done some research, and most HR sites say that you should always communicate with an internal candidate, appreciate their application, and give them feedback on how they can move up in the future. My application was totally ignored.

They've proceeded to hire other people who have no experience and have brought in no money in the whole time they've been there, and they make more than I do.

My boss never listens to anything I say, even though I have over 13 years of experience in the field, and instead takes the word of a 28 year old with like 5 years of experience who has held low-level jobs and has no idea what she's talking about. The two of them triangulate with everyone in the organization. She complains to me that everyone thinks she's close to him and has influence, and he then acts like she's his biggest confidante...they are both full of ****.

I don't know if there is an affair going on, but it certainly looks like it. It's disgusting.

It makes me feel like I'm going crazy. Part of my breakdown a few years ago when I had to go on SSDI was because of a very hostile work environment. I am concerned that is happening again. I don't know if I should trust my instincts or if I'm overreacting. But I am not the only one at the company who sees what I see. Co-workers have talked to me about the same issues that I have had about the boss and this co-worker.

This situation is having a major effect triggering my PTSD. I'm not sure how to deal with it.

I am flying to LA next week for a job interview. I am torn about whether or not I want to move back to LA...I am comfortable in my home and where I am, but I can't work here any longer, and there are very few opportunities in my field for me here.

I don't know how I'm going to get through the day tomorrow.

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