[winter4me]

As someone who grew up in earlier times, I am so glad to hear people talking about telling their employer about their challenges and needs---
When I was supervising, I can remember the very first time someone called in to work because they were having a panic attack---I was proud of that employee while wishing I could do more than let them know that I just wanted them to do what they needed to do.

[88Butterfly88]

Volunteering is going well for me. I'm not quite ready to seek paid employment yet.

[Mountaindewed]

I have my first day back at work outfit all planned out. These clothes legit look like I am transgender. So maybe people can figure it out themselves and won’t bug me. But I have been working with my Pdoc and T these past 3 months about how to handle questions. And yes they have prepared me for the possibility that there could be harassment.

[WastingAsparagus]

Going to begin working in education soon. So, that is good. It is part-time, so I can continue studying while working. I am happy for this. It is also online, so that's also good.

[88Butterfly88]

Volunteering is still going well. I'm still not stable enough to seek paid employment.

[bpforever1]

I am doing well. I teach daily but only a few hours a day. I feel great! I like teaching. I remember to take my medication in the morning. It has helped me tremendously!

[Mountaindewed]

I quit work and I think I should feel relieved now that I don’t have to worry about catching covid. But honestly I just feel very guilty about it. I know my status is rehire-able. But it’s not at the same location. I know I made the right decision and I know I’ll be ok financially. I just feel like I let a lot of people down.

[bpforever1]

I have new students this upcoming week and next week. I am doing well so far. I am really managing well but am tired. I hope to do my best with my new students. I feel anxious but know just to be myself and everything will be fine.Smiling helps but being prepared helps the most. I love teaching! I am happy to be doing something I like and getting paid for it. I don't earn much though but the work is satisfying! Life is ok!

[beauflow]

How does a person that have trust issues really flourish in an environment that is cloak and dagger? Underhand and lies... not to mention the low self image and dealing with the world of "you gotta be the best " and if you dont have a degree you dont know anything.

Last t session she really expressed that I should find another job, but I am always so unsure of where. I feel trapped in a sense because this all has been- it's been work on my part to prove myself but also luck in away.... in the end I feel i can not put myself through all that heartache and headache at another place. Let alone another place that's just as stressful and dysfunctional.

[Turtle_Rider]

I just chatted with my former coworker. She said that the toxic hag manager (who turned my last workplace into a hell and the first reason why I quitted) makes another drama(s). This time, the victim is the good manager. I hope my former good manager is strong enough to handle it. I don't get why the management does nothing with the bad one. A lot of employees have complained about her, yet still nothing.

The memory about it makes me grateful and appreciate my current workplace despite the troubles here.

[beauflow]

Turtle rider i had a supervisor once that employees "were in and out like a "rotating door"." many described it as, i complained for about five years of not only things personal but other's interactions with them that made me feel uncomfortable (which where I live stillis merit for hostile work environment), and I was told by mgt "if I go in and do something 'other's' won't understand and think im messing with a good thing because 'other's ' see [them/past supervisor] doing a great job and keeping things together".
In the end they chose poor wording and a new employee helped get an investigation on them going.... your post just reminded me of my situation, unsure if it even remotely applies... but the confusing with it all ... relate to.

I had a mini break down during a meeting two weeks or so ago... i haven't checked in with t aa the day after t was a no show but reached out.. i just felt like I needed time again, go through motions/just be at times... i still feel I'm getting my treads in again.... and the following two weeks wont let up any.. im taking an extra labor day weekend day as i have 10.5 work days of vacation to Take but ... i can't just take it all off...
Life and work Balance 101, I know.. but it's hard at times

[Turtle_Rider]

I am sorry that you were alo in similar situation. You're strong to handle it for five years, while I lasted only three months. I'm curious about how the investigation came with, but I can guess it is something bad for them. I think this is also due to bad management, they are either too ignorant sometimes.

I wish you are ok soon. As you cant take all the vacation days at once, try to take as much as you can. You clearly need a rest.

[Turtle_Rider]

My coworkers, who have worked for almost two years, told me that they are not permanent workers yet and their contracts have actually long ended. Quite schocking. No explanation about contract renewal nor promotion to permanent position. The reviews mean nothing.

[TishaBuv]

Not really working and accepting a disorder...

[bpforever1]

I am getting more students but some are leaving too so plus minus it works out to be about little over 20 hours a week. I am hoping to work 25 hours a week. I thought 20 hours a week was hard but now that I am doing it, I realize I can work more. I have to say the stress is getting to me though. I really was feeling bad last week and this morning was feeling lousy. But, I rested for most of the day and feel feel recharged again! I relish my time off. I love my job at times too!! So, everything is working out. But, sometimes I feel really stressed and want to end it all. So, I have to balance my work with time off. I feel like I can face my work again tomorrow!! I don't think I will ever work a 40 hour work week. However, I am making enough so am really happy!! That is, I am making as much per month as a a teacher who works at a school per month. So, sometimes I am happy. However, my priority is remaining healthy and stable so I am always on egg shells about remaining compliant. I am taking it one day at a time. Life is not bad! I am extremely grateful for my job and my health. Sometimes, life works out for my benefit.

[xRavenx]

I've been at my job for about a year and a half. I always had a bad feeling about my boss, never felt at ease with her. She's passive aggressive and two-faced. Well, something happened where I wasn't able to log on to a database to access information, and she threatened to write me up. I work really hard, despite my mental health problems, so this was extremely upsetting to me. This job has given me so much anxiety from the very beginning, and I came close to going out on disability a few months ago. I was close to quitting the next day after this incident, but someone helped me resolve the problem. I have a feeling my days are numbered there. If I do quit, I think I want to take off 1 month before looking for a job just to work on healing emotionally and clearing my mind. It's a risk, and it'll cost me some money, but it might be 100% necessary. This job has been so unhealthy and toxic.

[Turtle_Rider]

I relieved myself. I just learned I dodged a bullet.
Three years ago, I applied for a position in this small breakthrough firm. I got rejected, he said he already have another candidate. Ok then.
Recently, I heard he was a fraud. He treated his workers badly and those who still involved with him might getting questioned. The company will soon go bankrupt. Man, I would be in worse position than my last workplace if I got accepted there.

[bpforever1]

I was asked to be in a media campaign to attract students. I am hoping to get more students this way. I will be one of a few teachers who will be the face of the company. I hope it works and that I have more students in the end. But, the problem is I can't work that much so I'm already doing ok but too much work is not feasible for me. So, I may want more students, but can't teach them. What a dilemma!

[TishaBuv]

When I worked part or full time, I was fine about it, no issues. Then I got to be a stay at home mom for many years. The working years were then not so smooth. I don’t do enough at my job right now, and maybe never will. What I have done in it, for past 7 years, I have successfully finished though. It wasn’t always easy, but that’s also the nature of my job, stressful field.

[Prycejosh1987]

Working with a disorder is bad, i have been mentally ill and heard voices while at work, it was tricky to work but i made it work and worked so hard that my employers didnt let me go.