[FooZe]

The original thread is here: Working with a Disorder Check-In Thread.

By request, we're restarting it so that it can be open to everyone.

Thanks very much Fooze!

I am currently on a small vacation from work, and go back likely this Wednesday, but possibly Friday. I am nervous about returning after having over a week off, but I know work helps to give me a routine and it feels good to get that pay cheque.

So I am definitely heading back to work tomorrow, and it almost doesn't feel real. Hopefully it feels more real as I get back into the swing of things. Feeling a bit nervous for sure!

[Aviza]

I'm working part-time as a legal secretary. I love getting the paycheck with my disability, it's helping me get caught up on my bills and still have some extra money. I work 3 days a week, 6 hour days. I go to therapy and dbt on my off days, so I'm busy all the time it seems.

I survived my first shift back, and the time went by super fast for some odd reason. I am tired but happy to be back in a routine

[Aviza]

I'm tired this week too, and with the colder weather it's wearing on me. For years I was just on disability but I want to be more independent and get out from under mom's wing. So as tough as it is some days to work, it's beneficial in the long run.

[Turtle_Rider]

I just got two interviews this week. They are all nice.

Company A is friendlier. I can sense the good vibes when I first time gets there. But the problem is the transportation. It takes 1.5 hours to get there, not counting the traffic. Plus, the bus in the route is scarce. I found another route. I haven't tested it yet, but I don't think it would make any difference.

Company B is friendly too. It is farther than Company A, but surprisingly, it only takes less than 1 hour to get there; 45 minutes on departure and 30 minutes on the way back home. I guess maybe because it is near the boulevard. The route is simple, only takes 2 turns. The downside is... well, it is a pharma company specialize in test pack, condom, and any sexual stuff. So... I don't think I can be proud to say where I work at.

I'm quite hoping to get the job, whichever it is. But, I don't want to set my hopes too high. I'm still traumatized with my previous employer. Besides, they still have the batches of other candidates to interview through.

[SheilaKathy]

Things are going well at work. My client did something which makes me know that my work is appreciated! I am pleased. I feel valued, maybe for one of the first times in my life. I am in my mid 60s, so this is huge.

[Aviza]

Good luck on the jobs.

I found out that my boss is being examined to see if he can continue his work as an attorney. He messes up words sometimes. I may need to find another job .

[incogneo]

I've been avoiding work for the last hour. I'm just sitting at my desk going on the internet and doing non-work things. I really don't want to be here. I want to quit.

[Turtle_Rider]

Having a bad day today. I got angry with one of the vendor/supplier. I feel bad for him, but he should be honest and do his work instead of talking or promising. And I must learn to handle my temper.

Later, the internet was down and the bus was 30 mins late. So bored.

[carcrashonrepeat]

Yesterday I was terribly anxious. It was my first day at work. All I had to do was get trained on the operations and protocol of my role in the restaurant. It isn't terribly difficult. Overall, it was a good day. I liked my job. I only felt uncomfortable when the woman training me was talking about personal matters with one of the restaurant staff. I hate standing around with nothing to contribute, and if I do I feel like I'm inserting myself into somewhere I don't fit.

It doesn't matter, though. I figure my best strategy is to get on the good side of the manager, whom already likes me. And because she's new, I'm in a position to shine simply by taking her seriously; the rest of the staff is waiting for how long she might last. I've been around long enough to know she isn't bad at all. The downside to this strategy, though, is that she might leave. That means I'd have to adjust, which I'm not good at.

Being strategic helps me distance myself. I don't want to get close. I get close, then I get sloppy. And if something changes then I'll find any reason to quit. I hate that.

Either way, it always starts off good. Maintaining this without being hard on myself is truly the goal.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m one of 2-3 people getting all the extra hours in my department. I think being quite and keeping to myself and focusing only on the work instead of socializing with my coworkers has really benefited me. It took a long time to realize that though.

[Turtle_Rider]

Just heard my friend finally got a job. Though I'm happy that she' got one, I'm envy her because she starts one step ahead me and hers is high paying one.

[Turtle_Rider]

My manager and supervisor are out for a seminar. I haven't gotten any design request yet. So, I'm not doing anything at work today. Kinda happy but bored at the same time.

[carcrashonrepeat]

I feel the cycle begin again. I got the job. That little high is over now and I'm left realizing I never really wanted this job. But I needed it. I wish I could find a job that actually makes me feel good. On Thursday I have to come in early to review some things, and I don't want to because I feel so disconnected from everyone else. I go from feeling isolated to wanted to being upset when someone talks to me. From feeling humbled to feeling far too good for my role. It's made me irritable and unable to smile at the stupidest of jokes. I've already written my team off before I've even given them a chance. I'm not sure how much I can stand this but at least I have a paycheck every week to afford what I need.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m hoping to keep these later hours.

Lately I’ve been finishing my work and then helping out on the sales floor.
I was told today they really like having me out on the floor.

So I’m hoping it will become sort of a permanent thing. Me finishing up and then go on the sales floor. Therefore keeping these hours I want.

Although going on the sales floor terrifies me, it’s better then starting work at 5AM and dealing with annoying coworkers.

[Turtle_Rider]

Oops. I was caught slacking off just now. My boss considerate and did not blast on me, because I've finished my tasks and no ongoing task at the moment.

But I still consider this is a warning. I got to be careful.

[Turtle_Rider]

Angry and rage. A manager harassed me. He's not even my manager, but from another division. He has done this before, but this time my response is the worst. I gave him a middle finger and swore at him. I know it's a bad attitude at work especially to your senior, but I couldn't hold my anger anymore. I want to punch him. Seems like he enjoy to provoke me.

Kind of worry about my job too. I like the boss (the other managers and the boards) and the workplace. I hope I could hold my anger to not beat that pervert mother****er.

[Mountaindewed]

Apparently having autism is helping me succeed at work. I got very good marks on my review. They kept saying how I focus on the work and avoid conversations. I feel pretty good about the review.