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leomama · Jan 27, 2018 at 08:05 AM

It’s been over a year since I’ve gone back to work full time. It’s interesting to say the least to have to deal with ptsd in the workplace and all the little ways it manifests. It’s exhausting. I thought I was going to be able to see my original doctor to go off my medication but it’s been impossible to sync our schedules.

hvert · Jan 30, 2018 at 08:59 AM

Congrats on making it through the first year of rebuilding! I hope you can make that schedule sync happen sooner or later.

seesaw · Jan 30, 2018 at 11:01 AM

Wow, one year down...congrats.

Jan 30, 2018 at 11:51 PM

Glad you’re back to work. Are you seeing a therapist too? Mine is helping me with all the triggering things that happen at work.

It was all the people here advising, “See a therapist” that got me to finally seek one out and go.

leomama · Jan 31, 2018 at 12:58 AM

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Originally Posted by key tones

Glad you’re back to work. Are you seeing a therapist too? Mine is helping me with all the triggering things that happen at work.

It was all the people here advising, “See a therapist” that got me to finally seek one out and go.

Lol I was in therapy for a very long time. I’ve graduated from at least 2 therapists as well as DBT. I did see a therapist about work issues.

I have DBT and CBT skills at my disposal .

Jan 31, 2018 at 01:04 AM

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Originally Posted by leomama

Lol I was in therapy for a very long time. I’ve graduated from at least 2 therapists as well as DBT. I did see a therapist about work issues.

I have DBT and CBT skills at my disposal .

I’m on my second therapist. She does DBT and CBT also.

I’m finding someone at work very triggering. My therapist suggests that I not look her in the eyes, just somewhere else on her face, and to think of the things she does in another light, “She’s trying to help me.”

It’s really helpful for me to go talk out what is triggering and my various fears/catastrophic thinking.

leomama · Jan 31, 2018 at 01:07 AM

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Originally Posted by key tones

I’m on my second therapist. She does DBT and CBT also.

I’m finding someone at work very triggering. My therapist suggests that I not look her in the eyes, just somewhere else on her face, and to think of the things she does in another light, “She’s trying to help me.”

It’s really helpful for me to go talk out what is triggering and my various fears/catastrophic thinking.

Did I say I was triggered? No I’m just having to deal with the challenge of training someone who’s hard to train, as well today having to deal with someone from another store. On the one hand I have empathy for my supervisors because I used to be like that. On the other hand I’m frustrated because I don’t really have the authority I need to make the impact I want to make.

seesaw · Jan 31, 2018 at 01:19 AM

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Originally Posted by leomama

Did I say I was triggered? No I’m just having to deal with the challenge of training someone who’s hard to train, as well today having to deal with someone from another store. On the one hand I have empathy for my supervisors because I used to be like that. On the other hand I’m frustrated because I don’t really have the authority I need to make the impact I want to make.

I think key tones was just relating why he is seeing a therapist to help with his work. Not suggesting you were triggered.

I get it though, work frustrations can be so irritating. I sometimes just like to talk about them with someone to get it out of my head/off my chest and leave it behind. Also sometimes talking about it helps me see it from a different perspective.

Seesaw

leomama · Jan 31, 2018 at 08:52 PM

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Originally Posted by seesaw

I think key tones was just relating why he is seeing a therapist to help with his work. Not suggesting you were triggered.

I get it though, work frustrations can be so irritating. I sometimes just like to talk about them with someone to get it out of my head/off my chest and leave it behind. Also sometimes talking about it helps me see it from a different perspective.

Seesaw

I talked to my therapist about work for a long time and I know what she would tell me. SHe's so relaxed, like everything's easy to her.

I'm just incredibly frustrated, and not really sure what to do.

seesaw · Feb 01, 2018 at 12:42 PM

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Originally Posted by leomama

I talked to my therapist about work for a long time and I know what she would tell me. SHe's so relaxed, like everything's easy to her.

I'm just incredibly frustrated, and not really sure what to do.

I hate that, when people expect you to act like you don't have your disorder in dealing with something...like, I can't handle it like you because that doesn't work for me. Help me figure out something that works for me!

leomama · Feb 02, 2018 at 12:16 AM

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Originally Posted by seesaw

I hate that, when people expect you to act like you don't have your disorder in dealing with something...like, I can't handle it like you because that doesn't work for me. Help me figure out something that works for me!

I have to be careful what I say online. Work is fine. The internet is not a good place to vent about work, for me. Anybody could read it. Karma catches up to everybody, prayer works. Remembering those things will keep me sane. Everybody experiences stress, bad days. Work is work. Everybody has to work.
I will say this much. My job taught me exactly how much I despised being submissive to multiple people, but it was an important lesson for me to learn as I thought I wanted to be submissive in my personal life. I’ve learned submission is not for me, and if I have to do it at work I will because that’s how I earn my living, but that’s it. I’m cured of my thinking being submissive is anything desirable or attractive at all. The reality of it is horrible, for me. I’m not at all a submissive person and I respect that about myself now.

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leomama Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2014 Location: USA Posts: 4,703 10 172 hugs given	Jan 27, 2018 at 08:05 AM #1 It’s been over a year since I’ve gone back to work full time. It’s interesting to say the least to have to deal with ptsd in the workplace and all the little ways it manifests. It’s exhausting. I thought I was going to be able to see my original doctor to go off my medication but it’s been impossible to sync our schedules.
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hvert Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2014 Location: US Posts: 4,889 10 3,790 hugs given	Jan 30, 2018 at 08:59 AM #2 Congrats on making it through the first year of rebuilding! I hope you can make that schedule sync happen sooner or later.
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Anonymous45390 Guest Posts: n/a	Jan 30, 2018 at 11:51 PM #4 Glad you’re back to work. Are you seeing a therapist too? Mine is helping me with all the triggering things that happen at work. It was all the people here advising, “See a therapist” that got me to finally seek one out and go.
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