[gem85]

While I was completing my degree, I applied for and received a scholarship for study materials and test fees for a professional exam. At the time I was doing better and was optimistic about it. Fast forward to now. I don't feel enthusiastic about it and get anxious when I think about it and have a hard time concentrating and pushing myself when I attempt to study. Also I am not even sure if I want to even do the career that the exam is for. Also I don't have any experience in that field so I dont even know if sitting for the exam will help my career prospects because I need experience to actually get licensed. They give you time to get the experience but who knows if I would get the required experience in time. I told my parents that I don't think I am going to take the exam and felt that it would be better to use my time trying to research other ways to get better to go back to work. I already go to therapy and take meds. They made me feel guilty saying I should take it since I applied and took an opportunity from someone else. I think I will fail it anyway but they say I should try. Should I feel guilty. Sorry for thw long read.

[Skeezyks]

I don't think you should feel guilty. But I do question whether or not skipping the exam is the best decision. From what you wrote it's all paid for. So it doesn't sound as there there's much of anything in the way of money coming out of your pocket.

I think what you have to consider is whether not taking the exam is really the wise career move or if this is more a matter of avoidance behavior on your part. That sort of thing can become a habit. Yes, as you point out, there are a number of unknown variables here in terms of whether or not you could actually pass, & whether or not you could gain the necessary experience. But much of life is like that. Many times we just have to forge ahead & allow ourselves to be comfortable with the uncertainty. So my personal prejudice would be, unless there is really a solid reason not to, take the test.

[DoroMona]

I understand your anxiety, but you may end up regretting not giving it a try. Probably more than you'll regret a bad score. Make yourself a study schedule and maybe have one of your parents help you stick to it. Approach it with the mindset of "I'll see how well I do" and not "I have to pass this." I bet you will surprise yourself. And this will make it easier the next time you have to face something like this.