[helpbebetter34]

Something in me has broken in the past weeks. I look at the person I was a few years ago struggling sure but fighting
I don't have any fight left. I'm done

In the last week I have been laid off no fault of my own business was taken over, so even though I have good performance, it's over.
Next day found out I can't have kids (medical reasons)
Told my SO this we were together a year.. after I tell him this he ghosts me for a few days. Then calls and tell me he wants kids ..so unsure we can move forward.
What do I do.
Found out also my boss who bought me to this company KNEW THE WHOLE TIME that the restructuring was going to happen. And didn't tell me because she wanted to use me
How can people be like this.

Possible trigger:

I want to end it all.

I've always been depressed and off and on in counseling since my twenties. But God help me I don't have the strength anymore to even try.

[Winnieler]

I noticed no one has yet commented on this, but I wanted to send love and support your way. Even if I can't help with your problems, the fact that you're scared and feeling like you want to end it all is alone worth a message... a reminder that you ARE important and you WILL get through these tough times.

I have PCOS and after years of trying to conceive, I haven't had any luck. I know the feeling of emptiness you might feel, but you are not alone. I'm not sure what medical situation you have going on, but know that somewhere there are others feeling that way too. I suggest looking for a support group (in person or online) so you can connect with others.

If your significant other feels that way, then maybe it isn't meant to be. Speaking only from my experience, I had a boyfriend I thought I was going to spend my life with, but when I couldn't conceive... things came to an end pretty abruptly. I felt like my world was going to crash. Five years later I am married to an understanding man who never gives up on me, even if we never have children. Remember that your self worth is more than your medical condition. Remember that there are people out there that understand and ready to support you. Anyone who is going to ghost you after such a scary moment in your life isn't worth your time or love.

So take a deep breath. Remember that you're stronger than the feelings and self doubt and exhaustion. You're stronger than the hiccups in the road. Most importantly, even though you don't feel it right now, you WILL overcome the struggles you're facing. It won't be overnight, but it will happen.

And if that doesn't help, know that someone across the world is rooting for you! You've got this! Be gentle with yourself. Love yourself for everything - the good and bad. Take it one day at a time, one little win, one positive thought.

[Skeezyks]

Hello helpbebetter: Thank you for bringing your concerns here to PC. I noticed this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central. One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the relationships & communication forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/relat...communication/

And then here are links to 4 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that offer insights on what to do when life falls apart:

What To Do When Life Falls Apart: The Essential 6 Step Program

Everyone Falls Apart: 8 Realizations to Pick Up the Pieces Again | Caregivers, Family & Friends

Falling Apart? 4 Ways to Put Yourself Back Together | Bounce Back: Develop Your Resiliency

Book Review: The Art of Not Falling Apart | Psych Central Reviews

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.