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Default Dec 08, 2022 at 06:40 PM
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Congratulations! And a day early!

Thanks @Bill3! Yes, a day early. But I am anticipating a lot more work to do after my boss sees it and reviews it. He's very nitpicky.

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Default Dec 09, 2022 at 06:40 AM
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Now I am nervous. It's due today and my boss still has to review my audit. This is the first full audit I've done by myself, and it took me twice as long or more than I was given.

I had horrible nightmares last night and did not sleep well. Anxiety eats me up. I wish I felt better about work this week, but I don't. I wish I could just stick with content tasks, but I have other digital marketing tasks given to me. I still worry about where my job is heading.

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Default Dec 09, 2022 at 05:21 PM
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Well, I spent most of the day on editing it after my boss's review, but it's done, it's handed in, and hopefully I will not have to touch it any further. 30 slides - the whole audit and presentation. What a bear. My colleague had to do a 200-slide audit!!!!! I am wincing and whining over 30 slides... and she did 200?!? I cannot even fathom it.

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Default Dec 14, 2022 at 07:21 AM
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My boss has sent my audit back to me to be completely revised. I have TWO days to complete it. I am beside myself. He said my recommendations were "shallow". whatever that means.

We're meeting this morning to review his notes so I can get further direction from him.

I HATE audits, I SUCK at them, I worry I will get fired because I cannot do this aspect of my job and it's one of the most important aspects.

I don't know how I am going to make my audit better, at this point. I am full of anxiety.

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I hope that the meeting this morning helps you know what to do next (((((((Have Hope))))))))
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Default Dec 14, 2022 at 10:56 AM
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Is there a book you can read to learn about this aspect of your job?
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Default Dec 14, 2022 at 04:54 PM
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Did you get the info from him today? Shallow might mean just lacks details? There are resources online with examples like semrush. Is there any training about it? I am sure you can learn it. Someone just has to show you
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Default Dec 14, 2022 at 05:04 PM
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Thanks so much for your replies!!

My company does audits in a very particular way so I must learn THEIR way. I know there’s materials out that that can also help me to learn these better. He did provide me with some helpful direction this morning. I will be able to finish it on time, thankfully!! I’m far along now in it… I think the recommendations I’m coming up with are pretty solid. Hopefully!!! We shall see. He picked apart my first version.

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Well, he (my boss) graded my work to help me understand where I am performance-wise. The first version of my audit he graded as a C. My second version he graded as a B or B-.

So, I improved, yet there's still lots of room for more improvement.

I was worried that if I failed at this task, that they would let me go from my job. I hope they are willing to work with me on improving my work output. I think they will be, or else I probably would have been fired by now.

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B is acceptable. They might need to provide more training to get you to an A. Or you might have to do more audits to gain more practice. Personally I’d ask them for more audits so you can get more experience in doing those
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B is acceptable. They might need to provide more training to get you to an A. Or you might have to do more audits to gain more practice. Personally I’d ask them for more audits so you can get more experience in doing those
B is certainly better than a C so I’ll take it. I imagine more audits are coming my way. I will volunteer to do them too.

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I am doing OK at work, but not stellar. I want to be doing a stellar job. I am used to doing that level of work, not just OK work.

But honestly? This last year (2022) took a real beating on me. I had to take a month off from work, then my father died, I was being abused at home, then I had to separate from my husband and now I am going through a divorce. All very stressful situations.

I try my best, but some days I do slack off and I rest here and there.

The recruiter approached me again about the university job. I turned it down for a second time. They are still looking. I decided I really cannot deal with a job change on top of everything else right now.

TGIF. I wish I were doing better, but I guess OK is better than terrible?

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When your divorce settles down, then you could focus on other things. Death in the family, illness and then divorce is a lot to juggle.
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When your divorce settles down, then you could focus on other things. Death in the family, illness and then divorce is a lot to juggle.
True - it has been a lot and all back to back.

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They also let someone go yesterday. Not from my team. From the paid advertising team. I keep thinking they could let me go any day now. I don’t feel valuable to them.

Do you think I’m a potential lawsuit and that’s why they keep me on? Because I had mental health issues and had to take a full month off? Could I be a legal liability and that’s why I haven’t been let go?

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A month off is nothing unusual and people do it all the time for their own illness or taking care of sick family. It happens all the time and I am sure your company had others being sick for prolonged period. A month isn’t even that long. That’s what FMLA is for

Well if you were repeatedly not doing your job causing others all kind of problems and constantly written up but still are there, I’d say possibly it’s because you might threaten to sue. But you are NOT repeatedly not doing your job, right? You do perform tasks they assign and it has to be valuable unless they assign busy work? Why would they fire you
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A month off is nothing unusual and people do it all the time for their own illness or taking care of sick family. It happens all the time and I am sure your company had others being sick for prolonged period. A month isn’t even that long. That’s what FMLA is for

Well if you were repeatedly not doing your job causing others all kind of problems and constantly written up but still are there, I’d say possibly it’s because you might threaten to sue. But you are NOT repeatedly not doing your job, right? You do perform tasks they assign and it has to be valuable unless they assign busy work? Why would they fire you
Because I often feel my work is not of the quality they seek - that I don’t quite meet their expectations. I do all that is asked of me and to the best of my abilities.

I’m the first person they’ve dealt with who had to take a leave of absence. It doesn’t happen there.

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Because I often feel my work is not of the quality they seek - that I don’t quite meet their expectations. I do all that is asked of me and to the best of my abilities.

I’m the first person they’ve dealt with who had to take a leave of absence. It doesn’t happen there.
No one ever had a surgery? Had sick family? Gave birth? Had cancer treatments? Were in the accident with long term effect? Is this a new company? How is it possible that people never took FMLA? Unless maybe is an extremely small company or very new. No one never ever gets sick or has seriously ill family member? Are they saying it to you to make feel bad? It’s extremely weird that these are all miracle people or something

Wonder if you just feel like you don’t measure up but in reality you are doing fine
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No one ever had a surgery? Had sick family? Gave birth? Had cancer treatments? Were in the accident with long term effect? Is this a new company? How is it possible that people never took FMLA? Unless maybe is an extremely small company or very new. No one never ever gets sick or has seriously ill family member? Are they saying it to you to make feel bad? It’s extremely weird that these are all miracle people or something

Wonder if you just feel like you don’t measure up but in reality you are doing fine
Maybe she meant they never had someone have to leave due to mental health reasons. And the company is very small and is only six years old. Maybe I am doing fine. I don’t know.

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Default Jan 10, 2023 at 07:27 AM
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I think you're doing fine and just overly beating yourself up over a perceived (by you) lack of skill or accomplishment. I do this too. Your posts about your soon-to-be ex-husband were very empathetic toward his problems and issues. Now that he's not sucking your energy for self-compassion, turn that energy toward yourself and be kinder to yourself. Things are hard when you're growing - you're learning new skills, learning to enjoy your alone time. Just let things be and see where it goes. Start looking at this part of your life like an adventure and grow into it.
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