Negative thinking in new job when faced with new challenges

Good job!!!!

Thanks, divine! It was a small accomplishment.

So, I had a candid conversation with my boss yesterday about the challenges I'm facing. I really don't think I am up for this job, and I don't know what to do. I cannot quit, and I cannot return to my other last job for obvious reasons. The only avenue I see is if they choose to let me go, then I can collect unemployment. I am in over my head. I am also starting to hear voices again, and it's very disruptive to my work. I have been unable to work as a result. The other day, I had to call in sick for half the day because of it. I am at a loss here.

What did your boss say to that?

I’d see a pdoc or at least call ASAP to discuss your medication in relation to voices. You don’t want to ignore that. Your insurance should be still valid till the end of the month at least

Yes, I am trying to take care of it.

My boss was reassuring, but I still feel like I cannot do this job up to their standards.

Don’t give up. I am sure everyone feels similar in a new job. Give it a good try and don’t be hard on yourself. All we can do is do our best so give yourself some credit.

Thanks so much.....

I am battling dark voices and it's been very very difficult to focus or even concentrate at work. Hence a sick day yesterday and Wed. Now I am getting behind in my work and I have to try to work over the weekend instead.

I am very concerned for myself at this point.

I thought about going to the hospital and admitting myself, but all they will do there is drug me up and then I have to deal with being on heavy drugs while trying to work upon my return. Then work will be even worse for me. So it won't do me any good to go to the hospital.

The last time this happened, I did 3 exorcisms, which worked. That's the only thing that DOES work with these dark voices is to work with an exorcist. So I have two sessions lined. up, but it's not soon enough. One is Monday night, and the other, early Wed AM.

I am really scared & concerned that I won't be able to pull my weight while working in this condition.

It is not OK... nothing right now is OK.

Ok. I am now in crisis. I need to go to the hospital and be admitted. I told work I will not be able to work.... I did not give any details, but I said I did not know for how long I will be out.

Going to the hospital is right thing to do under the circumstances. Take care of your health. It’s ok to tell work that you are in the hospital. They don’t need to know why. But they’d know not to bug you. Get well soon

Thanks @divine1966.

HELP - I really need some good advice about what to do regarding my situation right now and my job,

I received an additional medication from my primary care doctor to help squelch the voices. I went to ER and they sent me home with nothing. I was not admitted basically because I didn't want to go.

However the voices are so intrusive that I don't think I can return to work OR focus very well. And the additional med I was given is a heavy one that slows my cognitive abilities way down.

I haven't told work that I have a mental health condition. They think I am out sick with covid-like symptoms. My employer DOES offer short and long-term disability, but i had read that with short-term disability, IF you had been treated within the last 12 months (which I have), that you're not eligible for short-term benefits.

So, I don't want to be admitted to the hospital, because all they will do there is drug me with loads of new drugs, that then I will have to slowly wean. myself off of when I come out of the hospital. That's not helpful to me right now in my life.

I DO need a pdoc, and will try to find one, referrals from my primary.

SO what do I tell my employer?!?!?? I mean, the best case scenario is that I approach my employer and tell them, that yes, I have been sick with covid-like symptoms, but that the stress of feeling like I cannot reach beyond my current. capabilities to meet their high standards has brought on an onslaught of other symptoms from a condition I have that interferes with my ability to concentrate, focus and get work done.

So, do I approach my employer and ask them if they will just lay me off so that I can go on unemployment to get better? Telling them that this is not the right fit and that I cannot really work?

I cannot apply for disability benefits because that takes YEARS AND it's not enough for me to live on anyways. My solution is to take a lower level job that has less stress involved, once I have my life in order again.

What do you think?

I'm really sorry that you are dealing with these difficulties.

To what extent does your current employer have lower level jobs that might seem suitable once you have your life in order again?

If you ask the employer to lay you off, they will document that, not lay you off and if you quit and apply for unemployment they will contest it and you will be denied.

Your choices now are continuing to work under these circumstances, ask if they can transition you to a lower level position, or possibly applying elsewhere while continuing to work the current job. I’m not including quitting because you have stated you need steady income.

Thanks, guys..... I asked for a leave of absence. I cannot work. I am applying for gov't funding to cover me during my absence. It may be as long as 1 month that I need to be out. The leave of absence is unpaid by my employer and due to exclusions, I do not qualify for short-term disability. But there are other ways to get covered financially. I think it will be OK.

And there was no way I could work under these circumstances.

((((((((Have Hope))))))))

I hope you get right treatment and get better soon. I’d focus on that.

When you feel better, look for easier job. Sure it’s lower pay but there are expenses that you can cut so you can manage. Go over yours and your husbands budget and see what could be cut. I am sure there is a ton.

You can do it. If a job makes one that sick, then no money in the world is worth it. Money is not worth ruining your health

Thanks, divine. I am getting help.... and I may need to step down to a lower level job.

So I'm on an unpaid medical leave for a month from work. I am worried about recovery and being able to return. I am worried about getting fired too. I am worried about everything right now, to be honest. My illness is impacting my marriage badly. My husband is being supportive, but he's also frustrated and doesn't know what to do. We are trying to avoid a hospitalization right now. He is worried sick, but is also kind of snapping at me sometimes too. It's his frustration coming out, I know. I tell him to please watch his tone.

This is just awful - I start a new challenging job and almost immediately, became ill enough that I cannot work. I am sick to my stomach over it. I had to leave projects mid-stream because of this.

I wonder how this is all going to pan out? I have to find a pdoc, and I am told it's nearly impossible due to covid. I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.

You primary doctor might recommend pdoc they know who takes new patients. Or your therapist knows anyone? If you tell your doctor your symptoms he might hurry up finding someone as it’s obviously something you need help with.

I don’t think they would be allowed to fire you while you are on medical leave.

Just focus on getting better.

My doctor referred me to two organizations for a pdoc. Neither one returned my call. I then went to my health insurance provider to find a pdoc within network. All cost over $200 out of pocket.... I need to try and get a hold of one to see if they have availability. My primary doctor said it's very difficult to get a psychiatrist right now due to covid. I just reached out to a friend of mine for a referral. He need med management and was trying to find a pdoc not too long ago. It will take some time to find one.