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Default Mar 16, 2022 at 06:37 AM
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I have 8 more years until I can retire from my job with a pension...

And I think those years are going to be miserable. Every day I find myself miserable and dreaming of just quitting selling my home and moving south.

Yesterday I foolishly - FOOOLISHLY -- told my managers of a problem we were facing with another agency. I sent it in an email. I could not believe it when my manger actually took my e-mail and forwarded it to the head of the other agency.

I am beyond embarrased. I wanted her to do something about it, not narc me out. I am so embarrassed.

My prior supervisor left the position and got another job.

Something that I have noticed about this job is that it makes me so miserable... that I have trouble even considering getting another job while i am still here. It feels like i need to have a completely new start (know no one) to be able to have confidence in my abilities.

But that pension.... grr. People say, maybe you need a vacation and maybe I do.. but they have it set up where the person covering for me refuses to do the job and when he "covers" he only does the bear minimum and leaves all the work that he can for me when I return.. so essentially now I have all the work in less time.

Every day I wonder if I am going to make it.

We have to return to work soon and I am afraid one day I will write up a -- I quit letter and drop it on my bosses desk and leave.
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Default Mar 16, 2022 at 09:28 AM
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If you've made the decision that you will continue on in this job for another 8 years regardless, nothing I can say will stop you.

For me, my quality of life today is too important to commit another 8 years to that kind of existence, pension or no pension.

The next time you're tempted to report problems to higher-ups, remember this experience - where this time, the squeaky wheel didn't get grease, it just got a spotlight put on it instead. That's usually enough to prevent another incident.

I would take a vacation now no matter whether your job will be done or not while you're gone - and just deal with it when I come back. But if you're going to worry over that while away, maybe a vacation isn't necessary.
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Default Mar 16, 2022 at 03:43 PM
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A vacation really helps your mindset even if it's a long weekend.

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Default Mar 16, 2022 at 04:52 PM
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I have been retired for almost a year now. For what you're going through, it sounds kind of like what I had going for me before I quit. I had quit and then retired. I had a job for 15 years that I loved and then it just went to hell in the last few months. It was unbearable for me, especially when the maintenance man retired and the company made me take his place. It was a poor decision by management for me to take his place because I had very little skills in it. The maintenance man and I agreed that it was a bad decision by management for me to take his place. There are times I think it happened that way because the company wanted me out and that was a good way of doing it.

I'm very familiar with that "take a vacation" jazz. It can be a good idea in itself, but your mind will be filled with the dread of having to go back while you're away. So that wouldn't be refreshing for you. At least that's the way it is with me when I take time off from a situation like that. Also I've heard the "just suck it up" jazz, but it's easy for others to say that. It's not easy going through it. It's tough to feel like having to stick something out just because of a nice reward. I get the feeling if you wait for that pension, you might end up disappointed; and then to have gone through hell along with way. With me most times in my life I've ended up disappointed when I waited for something great. So it didn't seem worth it. But that's just me.

Did you say that you own a home? I owned a condo and sold it. I sold it three years ago, long before quitting my job. I felt the same way about owning the condo as I did about my job. It was nice to get that money and I invested in it and it helped a little bit. Since I've retired I've lived on SS and "windfalls" I had from last year that I put away and hardly spent. But the windfalls have been used up by now with just my basic living.

Right now I'm doing OK financially but it can't last much longer, so I have to make a change. If I'm not going to work, then I definitely have to leave where I live now and move to a much cheaper place. Or I could get myself a small job to supplement my SS, but now it seems like it's not easy to get a job.

Good luck to you at whatever you end up doing.
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Default Mar 19, 2022 at 08:07 AM
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I put in a request for some vacation time... as usual.. that isn't without a problem. The person who is supposed to cover for me couldn't tell me if he was available (trying to get out of it) and he likely will come back with some of that time he is available and some not and I will be forced to hat in hand beg other people.

I do have a condo. In fact I have been pushing to pay the entire thing off.. still have about a year or two.. so that I could have a little more freedom.

My boss gets a "review" this year and after that, he is guareneed a job for 8 more years until he hits mandatory retirement age. So in theory we should be retiring at the same time. So after he gets his review - I think I am just going to check out.

I feel like I could get a decent job pretty much anyplace I go. But in this place things are so crazy that I can't really have confidence in myself. It feels like everyone has to bring me down and it has been going on for so long... in this place.. I can't be me.

But if I was someplace no one knew me I could thrive.

Thanks all.
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