I want to go back to school/work, but...

1) Don't know what I'd major in (philosophy was the funnest class I ever took but I'm also good at math so maybe some type of engineering or chemistry or something. Problem is I'm interested in everything until I'm not.)
2) Tried a few semester of community college, but kept failing classes and gave up.

Thing is they think I have adhd. I think I have adhd. I talked to my old pdoc who knew me better than anyone and he thinks I have adhd (but while I was working with him we had other things to get under control first). Problem is I also am prone to mania and psychosis so treating it with anything that works is out. My old NP (I'm in between med providers) said I'd have to get neuropsych testing which is at least a year wait list depending on where I go and THEN after getting diagnosed we can work on it in therapy and/or try clonidine. Also concerned about the stress of school making my schizoaffective worse. I'm on SSDI because I can't even work steadily and I've been hospitalized like 30 times in the past ten years for mania/psychosis/depression/mixed states so that's another concern.

So I've been thinking about going back to work too. Maybe get my old job back as a ride/aquatics/ski lift operator. But same concerns plus being worried about being kicked off SSDI and losing medicare/medicaid and thus being kicked out of my current treatment (which requires me being on medicaid).

Advice? I really need something to do during the days

You can work part time. You are allowed to make certain amount and maintain SSDI and Medicaid. Find out how much you are allowed to make and work part time. If school is too stressful then don’t bother. Just try a couple of jobs, talk to vocational disability services in your area

You can also volunteer. I’ve volunteered at animal shelters, the library, NAMI, and for the county. I was also a advocate for PAIMI ( protection and advocacy for individuals with mental illness) and I was a board member of a deaf woman’s shelter. If your good at math that schools are always needing tutors for maths. I made great friends at the animal shelter. We cat people were a tight group. I’m sure the dog people had their own tight group though. I joined to work with the dogs but ended up in the nebulization room which was mostly cats and from there did more and more cat stuff. It was a huge shelter though so it may not be that way at every shelter.

School life is joyful for every child, when he grows up it will be a sweet memory.

It is not joyful for every child sadly

Kids who got bullied really bad hate school, with good reason

I wonder if you could take one philosophy class, nothing else, and see how things goes?