[badut]

Hello everyone. I hope this is the right place.

I have no motivation to find a job, although I need to. Here’s a bit of my backstory about how I got laid off:
It started when my mom died unexpectedly a week before Christmas last year. Since then, I haven't been able to function properly. Due to grief, I made many mistakes at work, including a terrible one that caused significant loss. Last month when my contract ended, they eventually laid me off. So now I’m back to job searching again.

I’ve moved back to my parents’ (dad’s) house to cut expenses. I know I should find a job immediately—I shouldn’t be a burden to my dad, and if I stay unemployed too long, it could hurt our finances (we don’t have SSI or any unemployment benefits). But I really have no motivation at all. I’ve sent a few applications, but it’s more like… I send them just to tick off the cheklist on my daily to-do list app. Sometimes I just ignore it altogether.

I don’t know why. Back then, when I was unemployed, I would find a job immediately, sending out a massive number of applications. At first, I thought it is grief. But I’ve stopped crying over her. Well… just a little sometimes.

[CANDC]

Welcome to MSF @badut - I am sorry for the loss of your mom. Losing a mom was difficult for me. I can only imagine how that has caused a disruption in your life.

When I was grieving I volunteered to help get me back into working again even though it was not full time. Hospice volunteering helped me to see that I was not alone. Many others were suffering loss just like I was.

Another thing I had to do was reinvent who I thought I was without my mom in my life. I had to try new things and start new routines.

My diet was inconsistent and mainly carbs which got me into mood swings and more feeling blue so I started eating more protein with meals and that helped'.

I also did Adrienne's Complete Beginner yoga and 5 minute Tai Chi on youtube and that got me more energized and soothed me.

I hope you find the next step to get you out of the doldrums that is normal with grief.

CANDC

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[badut]

Thanks @CANDC!

I opted out of volunteering. I don’t enjoy nursing at all. I once volunteered at a group home for disabled adults. The tasks killed me. Non-nursing volunteers were required to search for sponsorships or donors. I didn‘t enjoy that either.

I try journaling. It might not help me with job searching, but at least I don’t stay lying in bed doing nothing.

[CANDC]

I hear you @badut nursing can be very stressful.

I once did cleaning because I did not have to do much interacting with people. It was something I could handle while recovering from grief and loss.

Glad you enjoy journaling - I did that a lot also.

CANDC

[SquarePegGuy]

I feel the same way, @badut . I was laid off a few months ago. My wife and I still have a mortgage. She's disabled and can't work, but she's not getting SSDI.

Fortunately I'm getting unemployment benefits, and I got a small severance. But I'm burning through savings.

I've not seen a job I'm qualified for, but I apply anyway just to keep the benefits coming in. I'm so tired of this sheet. I just want to give up.